tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-88353685284725253822024-02-19T23:20:37.668+07:00From The Inside Out ...Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-27384207255587004362017-08-25T21:48:00.002+07:002017-08-25T21:52:41.115+07:00In the Silence<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I received so many good news from my best friends over these past twelve months. Some of them have just given birth to beautiful babies. A lot of them recently got pregnant and are expecting their babies. One of them got significantly promoted in her career. Some have just got married, and one of my closest friends just received two great blessings in less than a year: a second baby and a scholarship to pursue a higher degree abroad. I'm so happy for them.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">However, I admit that in this situation it is easy for me to fall into the temptation of jealousy as if everyone else's life is full of changes, milestones, and surprises while mine looks like a long marathon route where I run on my own in the silence. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I'm still working in the same project and same position as last year, and nothing changed. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for years but nothing happen just yet. I even thought that it was easy for everyone else to get pregnant but me. One of my friend is even in her 4th pregnancy (how awesome is that!). Looking at people's constant posts about their children, their growth, and their happy little family sometimes left my eyes teary and I felt a little pinch in my heart. Some friends even post monthly photos of their babies, along with their height, weight, and whether the babies have been able to drool, roll (or probably jump?). I might not be the only one who felt that pain. I know there are others who are still struggling like me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">But that's not the real issue. Back to the temptation of jealousy. Why do I feel as if I was being left out while every one else got their surprises? Easy, it simply because I sometimes overlook the small things in life that actually is a great blessing. I sometimes forget to give thanks, I forget how God has been so generous to me. I still live a good life, have great friends, a loving family, health, job, and so many opportunities to grow. I forget that in the silence God speaks in many ways. In the silence God teaches me to look deeper. In the silence I was trained to persevere. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Now I realize that while running my long marathon, I could actually breathe the fresh air. I could see beautiful tiny flowers blooming in the sidewalk, and people smile at me as I pass them by. In the long marathon run, my body is trained to grow stronger. Looking back at all roads I have traveled, I started to appreciate every small things in life. In this silence, I know God is still faithful. And I thank God that I still have a loving husband by my side. "<i>In everything... give thanks, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus". </i></span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-43792679586163467712015-10-20T09:23:00.001+07:002015-10-20T09:24:15.736+07:00I Never Regret My Decision<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Setahun sudah aku tinggal di
tanah Sumba ini. Itu artinya setahun sudah aku meninggalkan <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">my dream job</i>, dan mengikuti suamiku
tercinta yang mengabdi di sini. Aku sekarang menjadi ibu rumah tangga tapi
belum ada anak, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">stay at home</i> dan
bergulat dengan pekerjaan rumah tangga yang tiada habis-habisnya. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Kalau di tulisan terakhirku
tentang <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">jobseeker story</i> dulu aku bercerita
tentang perjuanganku mendapatkan pekerjaan yang sesuai <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">passion</i>, dan bagaimana tantangan-tantangan yang aku hadapi dari
orang-orang sekitar ketika aku mengambil pekerjaan itu, sekarang tantangannya
lebih lagi. Kalo dulu orang-orang, khususnya ortu dan kakak2ku meragukan
pilihanku karena mengambil pekerjaan yang tidak sesuai dengan latar belakang
pendidikanku, dengan gaji yang mereka anggap “kurang sesuai untuk S2”, kebayang
kan sekarang respon mereka gimana setelah aku resign dari pekerjaanku?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Flashback dulu sebentar lah ya.
Jadi setelah aku bekerja di NGO yang waktu itu, aku menemukan bahwa aku
sebenarnya adalah orang yang cepat belajar. Aku segera menguasai bidang baru
yang harus kupelajari untuk pekerjaanku yang berhubungan dengan <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">community livelihood, climate chang</i>e, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">sustainable environment</i> dan <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">disaster risk management </i>(<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">while my background was chemical engineering</i>).
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">By the grace of God</i> tentunya, aku
berhasil menyelesaikan salah satu project di NGO itu dengan cukup baik. Bahkan
banyak inisiatif baru yang kami kerjakan disitu yang tidak ada di area layanan lain
NGO tersebut di Indonesia. Aku diberi kesempatan juga waktu itu untuk
mempresentasikan hasil project ini di forum internasional. Singkat cerita, aku
menikmati pekerjaan yang kulakukan dan karirku cukup bagus.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Di sisi lain dari cerita ini,
aku bertemu calon suamiku ketika kami masih sama-sama jadi Management Trainee
di NGO ini. Kami bekerja di organisasi yang sama, tapi di area layanan yang
berbeda. Aku di Sambas, Kalimantan Barat, sementara dia di Sumba Timur, NTT.
Kami memiliki passion dan mimpi yang sama, makanya dari situ kami nyambung lah
ya. Setelah 2 tahun menjalani pacaran jarak jauh, akhirnya kami menikah Juli
2014. Dari sini kerumitan mulai terjadi. Ada kebijakan di organisasi kami bahwa
suami-istri tidak bisa bekerja di bawah satu atasan langsung yang sama<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">. </i>Saat itu memang kami tidak berada di
bawah satu atasan langsung karena area kami berbeda. Tapi berhubung kami masih
sama-sama staff kontrak, ada kebijakan lain lagi yang mengharuskan salah satu
dari kami mengundurkan diri setelah kontraknya habis. Kontrak kami berakhir
February 2015, dan setelah itu, salah satu dari kami tidak bisa di-<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">rehire</i> atau diperpanjang kontraknya. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">And I chose to be that person</i>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Atasanku, salah satu direktur
di kantor pusat menawarkan beberapa alternatif. Projectku di sambas selesai
September 2014, setelah itu aku akan dipindahkan. Ada dua posisi yang
ditawarkan ke aku, yang satu di Kupang, satu lagi di Jakarta. Dan kalau itu aku
ambil, pihak kantor pusat akan mengusahakan juga untuk aku dan suamiku di
permanenkan, sehingga tidak harus ada yang keluar. Suatu tawaran promosi yang
bagus. Tapi setelah diskusi yang panjang dengan suamiku, aku akhirnya tetap
memutuskan untuk resign. Apalah artinya aku mempunya karir yang bagus, kalau
aku dan suamiku harus hidup terpisah-pisah. Oya, aku tidak mungkin bisa juga
bekerja di area tempat suamiku bekerja di Sumba Timur, karena kami tidak boleh
berada dibawah satu atasan langsung. Akhirnya, 30 Sept 2014 adalah hari
terakhirku bekerja. Aku resign setelah projectku selesai, meskipun kontrakku
belum habis. Oktober 2014, aku pindah ke Sumba untuk mendampingi suamiku.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Pergolakan mulai terjadi di
awal-awal kepindahanku ke Sumba. Yang pertama tentunya pergolakan batin dari
diriku sendiri. Suatu keputusan sulit telah aku ambil, dan tentunya ini
beresiko. Menjadi <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">stay at home wife</i>
ternyata tidak mudah. Dari yang tadinya sibuk dengan pekerjaan dan terbiasa
mandiri, sekarang semuanya tiba-tiba sunyi di sekitarku. Kalau suamiku pergi ke
kantor aku pasti sendirian di rumah, hanya ditemani TV yang aku biarkan
terus-menerus bersuara. Di bulan-bulan pertama, rasa kesepian, bosan, dan merasa
seperti tidak melakukan apa-apa tentunya berkali-kali menyergapku. Tak jarang
juga aku bertanya-tanya, mengapa aku ambil keputusan ini, buat apa aku sekolah
tinggi-tinggi, dan mengapa sekarang aku disini. Ditambah lagi ketika aku
melihat teman-temanku di <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">facebook, </i>sebagian
besar sudah berada di puncak karirnya. Memang lah ya, kadang emang gak bagus
terlalu sering liat fesbuk dan liat orang lain, hehehe. Pergolakan yang kedua
tentu saja datang dari keluargaku, terutama ibu dan kakak2ku. <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">Thankfully</i>, bapakku lebih nyantai, gak
terlalu kuatir dengan keputusanku, haha. Tapi ibu dan kakakku terus menerus
menanyakan aku sudah bekerja atau belum, dan menyayangkan mengapa aku resign, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">like I haven’t had enough questions from
myself</i>. Lama-lama aku stress juga, dan suamiku lah yang jadi korbannya
(sorry, honey). Untungnya, suamiku ini bener-bener takut akan Tuhan, sabar dan
bijaksana, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">not to mention smart and very
good looking as well</i>, haha. Dia yang terus menerus menguatkan dan
memotivasi aku bahwa <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">value </i>ku tidak
ditentukan dari karir, gaji, atau apa yang aku kerjakan. Dia terus mengingatkan
bahwa aku berharga di mata Tuhan dan di matanya, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">no matter what people say</i>. Selain itu aku melihat bahwa penyertaan
Tuhan luar biasa atas kami. Meskipun kami yang tadinya gajinya dari 2 orang dan
sekarang hanya mengandalkan gaji 1 orang aja, tidak pernah sedikitpun kami
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<span style="font-family: "Gill Sans MT","sans-serif";">Setahun sudah aku di tanah
Sumba. Sekarang aku bisa melihat keluar dari kotak ke’aku’an ku. Aku melihat
kondisi anak-anak, masyarakat, dan alam disini. They need God, they need help.
Dan aku percaya, Tuhan tempatkan aku bersama suamiku disini untuk suatu tujuan
yang mulia. Aku akan melihat akhir dari cerita ini nanti. Saat ini, aku akan
terus berproses bersama Tuhan. Sekali lagi kesombonganku harus dihancurkan, dan
aku harus belajar kembali tentang kerendahan hati, <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">humility comes before honour. </i>Aku akan melakukan apapun yang aku
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However, I never regret my decission. </i>Sumba adalah tempat yang sangat
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Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-27168824314842835872014-01-21T16:44:00.001+07:002014-01-21T16:44:14.021+07:00Where Have I Been?<span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif;">Whoooo....rekor nih, hampir 2 tahun aku gak ngisi blog ini. akhirnya telornya pecah juga tahun ini, sementara 2013 tetap kosong. I'm not proud of it. Terakhir aku nulis blog adalah ketika aku masih job-seeker (ketauan waktu itu gak banyak kerjaan, haha). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Where have I been?....</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Gak kemana-mana sih, masih eksis juga di dunia maya, tapi cuman sebentar-sebentar dan hanya sebatas observer. Sekarang aku kerja di NGO yang bergerak di bidang kemanusiaan, yang berffokus pada kesejahteraan anak. Sejak 1.5 thn yang lalu aku berdomisili di Sambas, Kalimantan Barat dan mengerjakan pekerjaan yang aku sukai. aku bisa berpetualang kayak si Bolang (Bocah Petualang), sesuai yang aku impikan, haha. Sebelumnya aku sempat di Jakarta dan Nias bersama organisasi yang sama.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Banyak sebenernya yang pengen aku ceritakan, tapi aku nanti coba pilah-pilah lagi satu-satu lah. Ada soal menariknya pekerjaanku, tantangannya, pergumulan di tempat baru, sampai soal teman hidup. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Trus, sebentar lagi aku akan menikah (ehmmm....). Lumayan juga perubahannya dalam 2 tahun :). Banyak sebenernya yang pengen ditulis soal perjalananku sampai sejauh ini, soal persiapan pernikahan, de el el tapi tunggu mood dulu yah, haha.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">For all bloggers in the world, tetap semangat ngeblog yaaaa.....jangan kayak aku, hehe.</span><br />
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Whooohooo..., akhirnya berhasil juga finishing this story. Kali ini gw mau cerita ttg perjalanan gue finding "the one", but not as in "teman hidup" context loh ya..., ini konteksnya tentang mencari pekerjaan, hehe. Hmmm....mulai dari mana ya? gw tulis per chapter aja lah ya, soalnya panjang juga ceritanya. Yang mau baca cerpen non-fiksi (or cerpan kalo kepanjangan) ini...., hyuuuk dimari. Dicicil juga boleh koq bacanya. up to you lah.</div>
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Waktu itu Februari 2007. Akhirnya berhasil juga gw lulus dari kampus gajah duduk a.k.a ITB. Jurusan gw termasuk yang favorit lah waktu itu, Teknik Kimia. Masuknya susah (katanya). Buat gw keluarnya lebih susah lagi. Tapi kayaknya buat 50% temen seangkatan gw gak sesusah itu deh, buktinya IPK mereka tinggi-tinggi, dan yang <i>cum laude</i> cukup banyak. Gw waktu itu lulus dgn IPK selamat aja lah...., cukup buat cari nafkah, hehe. Jujur, gw dulu ngerasa salah jurusan, tapi mo gimana lagi, gw sendiri juga gak punya cita-cita yg jelas sih waktu lulus SMA. Alhasil, kakak gw lah yg milihin jurusan TeKim itu. </div>
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Hehe, ini poto waktu wisudaan =). Kami adalah batch wisuda ke-3 di angkatan. Yang laen udah pada lulus duluan Juli and Oktober 2006. Tapi yang lulusnya setelah kami juga masih ada sih ;) --> menghibur diri.</div>
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Waktu baru lulus, yang kebayang ya langsung apply ke perusahaan-perusahaan ternama buat jadi Engineer, seperti kebanyakan alumni Tekim yang laen. Website career centre ITB gw pantengin terus. Trus gw masukin lamaran ke beberapa perusahaan. Dan puji Tuhan, gak ada satu pun yang jebol, hehe. Untungnya, habis lulus kompre Feb 2007 itu, gw langsung dapet proyek research di Dept. Matematika. Itu kerjasama ama Dept. Teknik Perminyakan gitu deh, masih soal oil and gas juga, jadi masih kepakai lah ilmu gw di Tekim. Gw mengira proyekan itu bakal untuk 2-4 bulan aja sblm akhirnya gw dpt kerjaan permanen di luar Bandung. But I was wrong. Tuhan masih ijinin gw untuk tinggal di Bandung sampai akhir thn 2008. Selama ngerjain proyek itu, gw sempet bbrp kali apply-apply ke perusahaan-perusahaan lagi buat posisi engineer. Tapi ya itu, gak ada yang lolos. Seingat gw, dari sejak gw lulus itu cuman 2 ato 3 perusahaan yg manggil tes, dan itu pun gw gk lolos. Perusahaan-perusahaan yg lainnya malah kagak manggil untuk tes <i>sama sekali</i>. I don't know why. Payah ya gw ;p.</div>
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At last, I gave up around June 2007. Memang gw gak ditakdirkan utk jadi engineer. Gw udah stop jobseeking waktu itu. Akhirnya gw fokus aja ngerjain proyek research di kampus, yang client nya adalah perusahaan-perusahaan minyak. Yaaah, paling nggak, gw gak nganggur lah, meskipun gak tau juga sampe berapa lama gw bakal di proyek itu. Tapi dari situ gw banyak belajar, ketemu orang-orang baru, dan punya pengalaman baru. Bahkan ada satu proyek yang kasih kesempatan gw buat ke Siak, Riau. Itu bbrp jam dr Pekanbaru gtu deh. Waktu itu ada kerjaan trouble shooting disana. Mayan lah, jalan-jalan gratis, dibayar pula, hehe. So, it wasn't bad at all. Gw kerjanya fleksibel, bisa pake jeans, kaos oblong, dan sandal jepit (kecuali kalo ada meeting ama client ato presentasi). Trus masih bisa nerusin pelayanan juga di ITB. Tapi ortu ama kakak gw sempet protes juga, bolak balik nelpon nanyain kenapa gw gak nyari kerjaan yg lebih permanen, lbh <i>puguh</i> lah kata orang Sunda mah. Karena yg riset ini ya secara gaji emang bukan gaji engineer sih, tapi gaji mahasiswa, hehe (kecuali kalo pas dapet bonus). Yaaah...bukannya gw gak nyari Mam, kak, tapi emang usaha gak ada yg membuahkan hasil. And around that time, most of my friends had found their dream jobs as engineers.</div>
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Gw gak inget ceritanya gimana sampe gw akhirnya iseng nyari beasiswa buat ambil S2. Waktu itu coba googling aja soal beasiswa, eeeehh....trus nyangkut ama yg namanya ADS (Australian Development Scholarship). Gw liat-liat websitenya, syarat dan ketentuan pendaftarannya. Eh, ternyata gak ribet koq beasiswa yg satu ini, dan kayaknya gw bisa penuhin syarat-syaratnya in within 2 months (deadlinenya 7 September 2007). Beasiswanya buat study di Australia, mulainya thn ajaran 2008/2009, full cover, gak perlu mengeluarkan uang sepeser pun. Beasiswa ini targetnya 70% buat PNS. Karena gw bukan PNS, maka gw memperebutkan jatah yg 30% itu. Nothing to lose lah pikir gw. Kalo dapet ya syukur, gak dapet ya gak rugi.</div>
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Akhirnya, I put all efforts to complete all the requirements. Termasuk yg paling males nih cari 2 referensi, haha. Musti ngetuk-ngetuk pintu dosen pembimbing TA gw lagi, dan juga dosen yg jadi bos gw di proyek. But then, there was a problem............</div>
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Semua persyaratan udah hampir lengkap nih, kecuali legalisiran ijazah dan transkrip yang dalam bahasa inggris. Gw gak tau kebijakan ITB skrg gimana, tapi jaman gw dulu, ijazah dan transkrip bhs inggris hanya dapet kalo minta. Gw dah minta dari jauh-jauh hari, tapi ternyata prosesnya lamaaaaaaaa banget, sampe akhirnya H-1 deadline pendaftaran dan itu legalisir ijazah ama transkrip belom di tangan. Rupanya itu karena sang Dekan lama keluar kota, dan wakil Dekan sibuk banget. </div>
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Well, by faith, akhirnya gw kumpulin semua dokumen yg siap dikirim, udah gw masukin amplop, dan ditulis alamat tujuannya, tinggal masukin ijazah ama transkrip doank. Lalu, sekitar jam 4 sore, 6 September 2007, gw tongkrongin tuh loket akademik FTI, gw tanya terus ke petugasnya, gw bilang kalo ini urgent banget. Translationnya sih udah jadi, cuman yg certified copy (legalisirnya) blm jadi katanya. Ibu-ibu yang jaga loket itu bilang kalo pak Dekan keluar kota, dan wakil dekan lagi rapat. Selesei rapat jam 5 dan biasanya beliau langsung pulang jam 5 itu. Si ibu-ibu petugas loket yg baik hati itu tampak iba juga sama gw <span style="color: #38761d; font-size: x-small;"><i>(I should've asked her name *sigh, but at least I thanked her)</i></span>. Akhirnya ketika jm 5 sore pak wakil dekan keluar dari ruang rapat, si ibu petugas itu kejar beliau dan minta tanda tangan plus cap buat legalisir ijazah dan transkrip gw. Then, done!</div>
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Tapi itu dah jam 5 lebih. Gw masukin dokumen ke amplop, dan gw lem (ampe udah siap bawa lem loh gw, yakin banget bakal dapet, haha). But hmm....kantor pos pasti udah tutup, jasa pengiriman yg laen jg kebanyakan tutup jm 5. How can I make it to Jakarta by tomorrow??? Akhirnya dgn bantuan Siska, sohib gw yg baik hati, yg udah siap nungguin gw dgn motornya, kami meluncur ke Cipaganti yang layanan dokumen. Mereka belum tutup...., yesss!!!!! Gw langsung minta jasa super kilat, alias besoknya harus nyampe. And in Jesus Name, it was sent!</div>
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Somehow, I had a feeling that I would get this scholarship. God clearly gave His words to me, bahwa He had opened the door that no one can shut. So, when I got a letter from ADS bahwa gw lolos seleksi administrasi (sekitar Desember 2007), I'm not surprised. Ada sekitar 5000-an pelamar waktu itu, dan hanya 500 yang dipanggil buat tes lanjutan. Dan dari 500 itu, yang dapet beasiswa 300. By His grace and favour from many people, gw tes di Jakarta: Tes IELTS dan interview, around 11-12 Januari 2008. Gw dah gak inget waktu itu gw ngoceh apa aja ya sampe interviewersnya convinced banget, haha. And finally, 4 February 2008, got a final announcement from ADS bahwa gw dapet scholarshipnya. Praise God!!!! Then gw harus ikut training pre-departure dulu selama 3 bulan di Jakarta (Juli-Sept 2008). Itu pun by His grace gw bisa stay di Jakarta, dicariin kosan ama sohib gw, Jule, yg kebetulan ada kamar kosong di kosnya. Hehe, thanks Ju! You were in Jakarta for a purpose, salah satunya buat nolongin gw ;). Then, I quit my job yang research di kampus, by the end of 2008.</div>
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<b>Chapter 3: Hello Sydney!</b></div>
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12 January 2009, I landed in Sydney International Airport. A beautiful city, and one of the most iconic place in the world. So, gw pilih University of Sydney sebagai tujuan study gw, dan gw ambil Master by research in Chemical Engineering. Alasannya knp gw milih program study dan University itu:</div>
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2. Bidang research yg cocok ama minat gw ada di University of Sydney itu</div>
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4. Gw pengen bergereja di Hillsong Church. Kayaknya udah dari sejak di ITB dulu gw sering dengerin lagu-lagu mereka, dan merasa diberkati. Pernah pas gw nonton DVD live worship mereka, gw pegang layar monitor dan bilang "someday, I'll be there". Hahaha, it's absurd, but it's true. And yep, I've been a part of that church for 2 years and 3 months.</div>
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Sydney was an exceptional experience for me. I found God's purpose, His truth, and I discovered my passion. I met amazing people, who become my best friends, lifelong sisters and brothers in Christ. I was blessed beyond measure. For 27 months, I learned a lot of things and just can't thank God enough for all His plans. It was much better than my initial plan to work in a company. I was paid better than if I work in one of the companies I've been applied for (no offense). And of course, I got a privilege to be a part of the beautiful body of Christ in Hillsong church. In that church, I found God's purpose for me. I found His heart and passion about what I should do with my life. I found a new family, a new home in Christ. </div>
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Gw sempet melayani di Hillsong Kids, where I found my passion for children's well-being. Gw juga ikut persekutuan Hillsong Campus, kayak pelayanan mahasiswanya gitu lah. Disitu gw kembali digairahkan untuk melayani anak-anak muda. It seems like God had to take me to Sydney in order to open my eyes and my heart. Studynya juga cukup menyenangkan. Tapi apa yg gw dapetin dari Sydney ternyata lebih dari sekedar ilmu ato gelar. I met and befriended with so many people from so many different countries, cultures, and backgrounds. Mata gw terbuka untuk melihat realita di dunia luar, apa yang terjadi di negara-negara berkembang yang lain. Mungkin selama ini gw pikir Indonesia itu masyarakatnya banyak yang miskin dan sengsara, tapi ternyata emang banyak yg lebih miskin dan lebih sengsara daripada Indonesia. I have friends who come from those countries. Issue-issue seperti child soldier, human trafficking, child abuse, gender equality, dan sex slavery juga mulai jadi my concern ketika gw belajar di Sydney itu. (Bukannya gw belajarnya Chemical Engineering ya? koq bisa sampe ke situ?hehe)</div>
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I also found myself along the journey. Dan untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup gw, gw punya cita-cita. I know what I wanna be when I grow up :). Dan yang pasti, karena gw pergi ke Sydney inilah ujung cerita jobseeker story ini jadi berbeda. Karena kalo gak ke Sydney, gw mungkin udah jadi engineer yang harus struggle dengan boredom and saturation, ato kerja di kantor yang datang hanya untuk menanti waktunya pulang, working without purpose.</div>
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Chapter 4: End of the honeymoon</div>
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Bisa dibilang, masa-masa gw di Sydney adalah honeymoon period. Ada suka dan ada duka sih, but mostly menyenangkan. Gw banyak jalan-jalan juga, sempet nyeberang ke negara tetangganya, maen ke tempat syutingnya Lord of The Ring (aheeeyyy....!!!!). Pokoknya everything was beautiful lah. Gak banyak yang perlu dipikir karena gw single. Gak perlu mikir nyari duit. Ngabisinnya juga gak pake mikir (haha, kidding). So,buat para singles yg pengen kuliah lagi, mending sekarang deh mumpung masih single :D. </div>
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Sampe akhirnya saat perpisahan itu tiba. 7 April 2011, gw kembali ke tanah air tercinta. Seneng sih bisa pulang lagi ke rumah, ketemu ortu gw lagi setelah bertahun-tahun merantau, ketemu keluarga dan temen-temen lama, tapi kenyataan yang gak bisa dihindari adalah the fact that<i><b> <span style="color: red;">I am jobless</span></b></i>. Bang!!!! the honeymoon was over. Reality bites! Kembali lagi deh ke Chapter 1, jobseeking period.</div>
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What makes it so hard being a jobless person? Well, buat gue, ini beberapa diantaranya:</div>
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2. Biasa dapet duit 2 minggu sekali, sekarang gak dapet duit sama sekali (*wkwkwkw, ini yg paling berat kayaknya :p)</div>
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3. Pride. Masak seehhh gak ada yang mau meng-hire gue? Udah sekolah jauh2, capek2, dan susah lagi (<span style="color: #990000; font-size: x-small;">*ahhh yg benerrr....perasaan lu jalan2 mulu deh cha!</span>) </div>
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4. Tanggung jawab dan beban mental ke ortu dan sanak family. Not that my parents need money from me, tapi sebagai anak pasti pengen lah kalo udah lulus sekolah ya kerja gitu. Yah, semoga ortu gue tabah2 aja dan tutup telinga ketika orang2 bilang <span style="color: #351c75;">"</span><i><span style="color: #351c75;">Itu anaknya yang baru pulang S2 dari luar negri sekarang kerja dimana?",</span> </i>dan mereka cuma bisa jawab <span style="color: #351c75;">"<i>masih nganggur pak, bu</i>"</span></div>
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7. Some people are changing jobs easily just like changing their outfits. Why is it so hard for me to get just one?<br />
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Intinya, masa-masa indah itu dah berlalu. Yang ada, hampir tiap malem gw masih mimpi dengan setting di Sydney dan temen-temen yg di Sydney juga. Ahhh...., bener-bener pengen mengulang kembali masa-masa indah itu. Apalagi ketika hari-hari gw mulai gak jelas, galau.....</div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Sebulan,
2 bulan, 3, 4, 5, 6........, sampe 10 bulan dan tidak ada tanda-tanda
sama sekali bahwa gw akan dapet pekerjaan. Waktu awal-awal gw baru
balik, gw dah punya segudang rencana nih, pengen apply jadi volunteer di
UN, ato di NGO buat modal ngambil 2nd Master di bidang Development
Studies (yup, banting setir ke ilmu sosial). Waktu 5 bulan pertama di
indo dan blm dapet kerja sih gw nyantai aja, masih menikmati masa-masa
nganggur. Tapi setelah 6 bulan lewat, jujur, mulai was-was juga gw.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">For
the record, gw udah nyebar application letter and CV ke beberapa
tempat. Mulai dari engineering job, sampe yang gak ada hubungannya sama
sekali ama engineering, such as guru TK/SD, haha. But somehow, entah
kenapa they didn't respond at all. Well, kemaren ada 1 sih yg manggil
buat
test for engineer position, tapi abis aptitude and psikotest, gue gak
dipanggil lagi. Jangan2
gue psycho, haha :D. Tapi emang I wasn't sure that I want that job sih,
(cuman kayaknya seru aja trainingnya di Brazil) jadi ya gue gak kecewa
juga. Dari 10++ jobs yg gw apply 10 bulan terakhir, ya cuman itu yg
manggil buat test, dan itu pun gw gak lanjut lagi.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Gue udah berdoa dan consult sama Tuhan soal kerjaan ini of course, tapi gue belom dapet specific answer such as <i><span style="color: #274e13;">"Ini lho anakKu, apply di sini, di company/organisation A"</span></i>. Gue akhirnya berdoa doanya orang buta karena dah gak tau lagi mo gimana. </span><span style="color: #0b5394; font-size: small;"><i>"Tuhan,
tutuplan jalan yang tidak Engkau inginkan untuk aku lalui, dan bukalah
jalan yang Engkau ingin aku lalui. Be my Guide and show me Your way"</i></span><span style="font-size: small;">.
Dulu salah satu leader di pelayanan Sion pernah bilang kalo doa gitu
gak baik tuh, itu doanya orang buta . Well, to be honest, I don't know
what else to pray, so I totally surrender to God while praying that. Dulu, waktu awal-awal mo cari kerja, gw bilang sama Tuhan <i style="color: #0b5394;">"God,
I don't wanna randomly send my application everywhere, please show me
the way.I don't wanna end up doing something I would complain about. I
want to do something that I'm really passionate about, in a place where
my hands are needed most, and touching people's lives".</i> I still pray
that prayer though, but, karena udah lama nunggu dan gak sabar karena
belom ada
jawaban spesifik, akhirnya pikiran manusiawi gue nyerah juga dan
akhirnya apply ke banyak tempat. Hasilnya? NOL sodara-sodara! Kembali
lagi ke Chapter 1, dimana pintu-pintu perusahaan tertutup buat gw. Gw
tau, emang gw bukan ditakdirkan jadi engineer. I will choose the path
less travelled.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Sebenernya kutahu yang kumau (kayak
iklan aja). Gw tau pekerjaan macam apa yg pengen gw kerjain. But I just
don't know how to get there. <i>I'm not qualified for the job I'm passionate about, and I'm not passionate about the jobs that I might qualified for.</i>
Somehow gw terus mempertahankan mimpi gw itu. So, ketika gak ada
perusahaan yang manggil gw buat tes, gw ada seneng dan sedihnya juga.
Seneng, karena berarti emang itu bukan jalan gw dan gw bisa terus
mempertahankan <i>idealisme </i>gw soal pekerjaan, sedih karena itu
artinya I'm still jobless. Thanks for everyone yang terus nguatin gw,
and helped me to be patient and persevere.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Selama
masa ini gw tinggal bareng keluarga kakak gue di Bandung, with frequent
travel ke rumah ortu gue di Pati (Jawa Tengah) yang jaraknya 10 hrs
drive by bus. Somehow gue lebih seneng di Pati karena lebih peaceful,
deket ama ortu, bisa maen ama <a href="http://rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2011/10/introducingmy-best-friends.html" target="_blank">anjing-anjing gue</a>, meskipun konsekuensinya
gue harus beberapa kali menghadapi temen-temen ortu gue yang menanyakan
gue kerja dimana, kenapa masih di rumah aja. </span></div>
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di Bandung karena nungguin panggilan kerja aja. Kenapa gue gak
pelayanan lagi di Bandung kayak waktu masih kuliah S1 dulu? Well,
sekarang gue bukan anak kos yang bebas lagi. I respect my sister and bro
in-law as my authorities here, so I go to church with them in catholic
church (I was raised in a catholic family by the way), and sekarang gue
gak bisa bebas pergi karena harus jagain keponakan, dan mereka gak suka
gue ke gereja Kristen. Disamping itu, rumah mereka jauh dari pusat
kota. Dari rumah ke BIP aja bisa 1.5 jam, kalo macet ya 2 jam. Apalagi
mereka lagi gak ada pembantu. So, practically tenaga gue dibutuhkan
banget disini, apalagi kakak gue lagi hamil anak kedua, dan anak
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jadi curhat nih, gapapa ya. Kalo males baca, gak papa koq gak ampe
selesei bacanya. But ini belom klimaks loh......, yakin gak mau
ngelanjutin baca?hehehe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Dalam 10 bulan terakhir ini gue bolak-balik Bandung-Pati udah gak tau berapa
kali, pokoknya sering banget lah, mungkin 2 bulan sekali. Kalo
gue mau nunggu panggilan job interview, gue ke Bandung (karena most
interview will be held in Bandung or Jkt). Kalo gak ada yg manggil,
pulang lagi ke Pati, trus job-searching dan apply online lagi, trus ke
Bandung lg, dan seterusnya. Tapi kalo even-even kayak paskah, lebaran,
dan natal, gw pasti di Pati. Kenapa gak stay di Bandung aja sampe dapet
kerja? Well, living in my sister's family is a challenge for me. Mungkin
gw gak bisa ceritain disini, coz it's personal. But intinya, I hardly
find peace. Gak betah kalo kelamaan, hehe.</span></div>
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gue pulang ke Pati pas natal 2011 kemarin. Trus pertengahan Januari
2012 gue balik lagi ke Bandung, berharap kali ini ada titik terang.
Waktu di bus itu rasanya beraaaat banget mau balik ke Bandung. Entah
kenapa kali ini rasanya jauh lebih berat daripada yang sebelum2nya. Gue
sih pengennya masih di rumah, di Pati aja, karena toh belom ada
panggilan job interview juga. Ditambah lagi membayangkan situasi di
Bandung, tambah males lagi. But somehow gue ngerasa kalo gue harus balik
ke Bandung meskipun berat. Itulah kenapa lahir postingan gw yang di <a href="http://rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2012/02/when-things-are-getting-harder.html" target="_blank">SINI</a></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Di bus malam itu (10 jam, pantat pegel dan panas) I prayed to God <i style="color: #0b5394;">"Lord,
tell me that this time I will not come back to Bandung for nothing.
Lord, it's getting harder now, could it be that I'am closer to the
destination? If nothing changes by March this year, I will just go back
to my parents' house for good, and I'm ready if You want me to stay
there without a job. I will just minister my family as long as You
wants. Help me God, I almost lose heart". </i>Ya doanya gak 10 jam sih,
but intinya itu. This waiting is getting harder, the road is getting
darker, and the silence is killing me. I was having a tough time
believing. I really don't know a thing anymore, totally clueless.
Sometimes I feel like waving my hands to the air and say </span><span style="color: #0b5394; font-size: small;"><i>"Hello God, I am right here. Can you see me? You're not forgetting me, are you?. When are you gonna give me that job?" </i><span style="color: black;">I
really felt like I was in the valley of the shadow of death.
Bener-bener udah gak tau mo gimana lagi soal kerjaan ini, dan gak tau mo
apply kemana lagi. Pokoknya udah siap lah kalo harus jobless setahun
lagi, ato nunggu dilamar aja, haha.</span> <span style="color: black;">Cuman masalahnya gak ada tanda-tanda ada yg mau ngelamar juga, jadi yg terakhir ini jelas dicoret dari list dulu.</span> <span style="color: black;">But somehow during that "valley" moment, I heard a gentle whisper </span><span style="color: #274e13;">"Be patient, my daughter...., a little bit more. It won't be long, I need you to persevere"</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Anyhow,
ketika gue browsing2 jobs, dan liat2 Chemical Engineering-related job,
gue bener2 gak ada yang minat. Gak ada passion, spark, fireworks, ato
hati yang berapi2 gitu lah. Ngeliatnya aja gak minat, apalagi
ngejalaninnya. Then I realized that it might be a sign, because if
something is from God, I will have peace. <i>And then, once upon a time</i>, pas awal Januari 2012 itu gw liat ada satu job opportunity yang gw passionate about, yang kalo gue liat itu gue bisa bilang...<i><span style="color: #0b5394;">."waah, itu gue banget tuh kerjaan kayak gitu, that was the one I've been dreaming of"</span></i>,
dan ketika gue baca lbh lanjut ttg organisasi ini, it's like "I wanna
be a part of them and participate in what they're doing". Ini pas banget
ama janji, visi, dan mimpi yang gue pernah tulis di <a href="http://www.rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2012/01/sketch-from-heart.html">sini</a>, <a href="http://www.rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2011/11/dreams.html">sini</a>, dan <a href="http://www.rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2010/05/living-my-passion.html">sini</a>
(baca ya, biar tau alurnya). But, my educational background and working
experience just don't match the qualification. A chemical engineering
graduate is the last thing on their list. Modal gue cuma passion, Yesaya
61:1, Amsal 31:8-9, and of course back up from heavenly Father. Tapi gw
bisa ngeliat bahwa di pekerjaan seperti inilah talents, skills, dan
passion gw bisa dimaksimalkan untuk melayani dan menolong banyak orang, <i><span style="color: #3d85c6;">"touching the lives of many"</span></i>,
seperti yang gue doakan. Sebenernya sempet terbersit untuk cari kerjaan
di organisasi ini pas awal-awal gw balik indo, tapi tahun lalu gw gak
nemuin lowongan untuk "fresh graduate" kayak gw. So, I tried to forget
it and burried my dream.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Menimbang-nimbang...,
memikir-mikir, akhirnya gw apply juga pekerjaan di salah satu INGO
(international non-government organization) itu, lewat website career
centre nya ITB. Setelah lewat 2 minggu, gak ada respon sama sekali.
Then, somehow, gw nemu lagi lowongan yg sama, tapi di jobstreet.
Langsung gw apply lagi lah. And surprisingly, keesokan harinya gw
langsung ditelpon ama HRD nya, dikasih appointment untuk interview
pertama. Puji Tuhan! Finally somebody called me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Gw
lolos interview awal dan tes tertulis case study. Gw pikir interviewnya
bakal lama yah, ehhh....ternyata gw cuman 5 menit donk. Temen-temen yg
laen ada yg sampe setengah jam padahal. Step selanjutnya seharusnya tes
TOEFL, tapi karena gw dah punya hasil tes TOEFL yg memadai, tes itu
diskip dan gw langsung disuruh psikotes. Dua minggu setelah psikotes, gw
ditelpon bahwa gw lolos ke tahap selanjutnya, yaitu interview akhir.
Interview akhir ini cukup menarik. Karena ini organisasi kristen ya,
kami berdoa di awal dan akhir interview, meminta hikmat Tuhan, apakah gw
orang yg tepat untuk pekerjaan ini ato gak. Trus gw jg spt diberi
hikmat sama Holy Spirit untuk menjawab semua pertanyaan dan diskusi dgn
para interviewers ini. I had peace ketika gw menjalani seluruh proses
seleksi ini, karena gw tau, inilah "<i><span style="color: #0b5394;">custom-tailored job</span></i>"
yg Tuhan udah janjikan sama gw. Meskipun di awal-awal, pembimbing
rohani ku agak gak setuju dgn kerjaan ini yg dianggap sekedar "social
gospel" menurut beliau (I don't even know what that means). Sepertinya
beliau lbh berharap gw pergi misi dengan platform jadi guru ato dosen,
ato apa lah di daerah-daerah, lalu membandingkannya dengan salah seorang
rekan yang udah S2 juga, tapi memberi diri untuk misi di luar Jawa
dengan menjadi guru di daerah tersebut. But somehow, I still have peace,
dan pada akhirnya pembimbing rohaniku mendukung juga. Aku tau,
orangtua, pembimbing rohani, dan teman-temanku berdoa untuk aku. Thanks
for those who are praying for me during this process. I can really feel
your countless support.Gw bisa bertahan di <i style="color: #0b5394;">endless tunnel dan valley</i> itu by His grace, dan karena ada orang-orang yang berdoa buat aku.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Ternyata
benar bahwa 'when things are getting harder, don't give up, because you
might be closer to the victory'. Baca link yang gw kasih di Chapter 6
di atas yaaa.....</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><b style="color: blue;">Chapter 8 : Defiance</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Akhirnya
gw lolos dari interview akhir itu dan tinggal medical check-up. Kalo
kesehatan gw baik (dan pasti baik sih), bisa dipastikan bahwa I get that
job, and by April 2012 I am no longer jobless; tepat setahun setelah
kepulanganku ke Indonesia, tepat setahun jadi pengangguran. But ternyata
tantangan gak cukup sampai disini. Gw masih harus menghadapi cemooh,
komentar-komentar, dan pertanyaan-pertanyaan dari orang-orang yang di
sekitar gw, dan juga perang yang berkecamuk di pikiran gw sendiri. </span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Yang
pertama adalah kakak gw sendiri dan suaminya. Gw kira mereka mendukung
gw waktu awal-awal gw mau tes kerja ini, tapi ujung-ujungnya ketika gw
dinyatakan lolos, kakak gw seperti kurang mendukung. Memang, dari dulu,
kakak gw dan suaminya pengen supaya gw jadi dosen di salah satu kampus
di Bandung. Mungkin mereka pengen gw tinggal di Bandung aja supaya gw
bisa bantu-bantu mereka di rumah dan ngurus keponakan gw kali ya. Waktu
gw lulus S1, mereka suruh gw apply jadi dosen. Tapi akhirnya gw berhasil
escape karena gw dapet scholarship ke luar negeri. Trus begitu gw lulus
S2 dari luar ini, mereka suruh gw apply lagi ke kampus yang sama
(tempat abang ipar gw ini kerja juga), dengan setengah memaksa sih lebih
tepatnya. Mereka memberi iming-iming bahwa gw akan mendapatkan gaji dan
tunjangan yang besar kalo gw berhasil jadi dosen. Intinya adalah
jaminan hidup nyaman dan sejahtera di Bandung.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">Well, gw
tau bahwa dosen adalah pekerjaan yang mulia, but you know, that's not
my passion and that's not where I wanna end up spending the rest of my
life. I was not born to be a domestic cat, I am a lioness. Kakak gw
mikirnya jadi dosen itu enak, apalagi untuk cewek, nyaman, trus ntar
kalo mau berkeluarga di Bandung enak juga katanya. Hmmmm...., gw paling
gak suka kalo ada orang yang terus menerus ngrecokin gw. Akhirnya
daripada capek nanggepin hasutan mereka, tahun lalu ya gw coba apply
untuk jadi dosen di kampus tersebut. But...., puji Tuhan, gw gak
dipanggil sama sekali oleh kampus itu, hahaha. See, I've told ya. If God
shuts the door, no one can open it. And you know, what's more
ridiculous about this......, abang ipar gw nyuruh gw untuk coba apply
lagi, karena takutnya dulu lamaran gw disabotase. Dia nyuruh gw coba
apply lagi, kali ini dia yang akan antar langsung lamarannya. Sorry lah
ya....., I've had enough. I've done what they told me, and now please
let me have my own dreams. (PS. lamarannya emang mungkin disabotase,
tapi disabotase ama Tuhan, haha).</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Then, setelah gw
positif dapet kerjaan di NGO ini, kakak gw nanya gajinya berapa. Setelah
gw sebut sebuah bilangan, dia bilang "Halahh...., gaji segitu dan mau
hidup di pelosok? mendingan kamu jadi dosen, hidup nyaman di Bandung,
gajinya lebih besar". Trus dia juga bilang "Apa gak sayang tuh S2 mu?
emang ilmu mu bakal kepakai disana?". Selain itu ternyata dia juga
menelpon ortu ku di belakangku. Dia bilang ke nyokap dan bokap supaya
menasehati gw untuk berpikir ulang, masak udah S2 ke luar negeri malah
sekarang mau kerja di pelosok tanah air. Rupanya bokap gw terpengaruh,
dan sempet ngomong ke gw gini, "kalo nanti hidupmu sengsara di
hutan-hutan, mendingan gak usah ambil kerjaan yang ini". Mungkin bokap
dan kakak gw punya kekhawatiran yang berlebihan tentang pekerjaan gw
ini, karena mereka gak ngerti juga kerjaan macam apa sih yg akan gw
kerjain ini. Mungkin penjelasan gw kemaren-kemaren belom jelas kali ya
buat mereka.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Akhirnya gw jelaskan ke bokap. Terus
untungnya gw punya waktu untuk menjelaskan ke nyokap juga secara lebih
rinci, menunjukkan website NGO ini, dan menunjukkan contoh annual
report, serta menjelaskan program-program yang dilakukan. Puji Tuhan,
nyokap gw mengerti, dan mendukung. Tinggal jelasin ke bokap dengan lebih
rinci lagi nih.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Tantangan berikutnya adalah menjawab
pertanyaan "Apa gak sayang, Cha?" yang udah gw terima berkali-kali dari
orang-orang yang gw temui. Teman-teman, keluarga, bahkan interviewers
waktu proses seleksi ini juga sering menanyakan pertanyaan itu. Well,
menurut gw, apa sih yang perlu disayangkan? gelar S2? wong gw bisa
sekolah S2 itu tanpa mengeluarkan sepeser-pun koq. Gw sekolah kan
dibiayain Tuhan, jadi ya gw pengen mengabdikan apa yang sudah
dipercayakan Tuhan ini untuk melayani Tuhan dan sesama. So, I've decided
to take this leap of faith. Whatever the consequences and risks are, I
have calculated them, and I won't turn back.</span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;"><br /></span><br />
<span style="font-size: small;">Last, but
not least...is my own pride or ego. Memang...., ini adalah jenis
pekerjaan yang gw pengenin, it's like a dream comes true lah. But, gw
masuk ke NGO ini dari entry level, MT dulu, alias Management Trainee.
Barengan gw yg ngelamar di posisi ini tuh ya para fresh grad S1 yang
notabene angkatan 2006 ato 2007 yang 5 tahun di bawah gw, hehe, ada yang
baru lulus banget malah. Gw masukin lamaran ke posisi ini karena memang
cuman posisi itu yang menerima lulusan dari jurusan apa aja. Dan gw
emang pengen kerja di humanitarian NGO kayak gini, tapi gak punya
previous experience. So, ya posisi ini yang emang paling sesuai, soalnya
ada trainingnya dulu di awal. Well, yeaahh....jadinya gw gak ada
bedanya ama anak-anak yang baru lulus S1, yang masih fresh. Gaji dan
posisi juga disamakan sama mereka. Gak heran banyak yang komen ke gw
:"Apa gak sayang tuh Cha S2 mu?", termasuk interviewers yang
berkali-kali menanyakan ini ke gw. Karena kalo di perusahaan pada
umumnya, meskipun sesama fresh grad, lulusan S2 dihargai lebih tinggi
daripada lulusan S1. Di salah satu company, sebut saja X, gw denger dari
temen gw, bedanya bisa Rp. 2.5jt/bln. Itu kalo ngomong masalah money
lah ya. But, kalo ngomong masalah pride and ego, ini sama aja gw harus
downgrade. Sekolah S2 gw serasa such a waste of time. Mendingan dulu
habis lulus S1 (5 thn lalu) aja langsung apply ke situ. Me and my ego
keep arguing in my mind. But akhirnya gw ngerti sih, bahwa gw ini milik
Tuhan. Derajat gw gak ditentukan dari jenjang pendidikan, ato posisi di
karier. Mau fresh grad S1 ato S2, gak ada bedanya di mata Tuhan koq. God
is more interested in the state of the heart. Dan satu firman yang gw
ingat di Proverb: <i>"humility comes before honour"</i>.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;">So,
in the end, gw tinggal ngirim form-form yang harus diisi, hasil medical
check-up, dan 3 lembar referensi. Rupanya nyari referensi ini gak
semudah yang gw kira. Ini referensi untuk background check bahwa gw gak
pernah terlibat tindak kriminal, terutama yang berhubungan dengan child
abuse. Gw dah dapet 1 nih, dari pembimbing rohani di pelayanan mahasiswa
di ITB dulu. Trus cari 2 lagi ini yang susah. Dosen S1? udah terlalu
lama gw meninggalkan ITB, beliau sudah tdk terlalu mengenal gw. Dosen
S2? di Australia, dan lagian form nya dalam bahasa Indonesia. Atasan
waktu kerja? gw udah 3 tahun lebih gak kerja. Jadi optionnya adalah
Pastor Paroki, dan Ketua RT ato tokoh masyarakat yang lain. Gw udah
ngadep Pastor Paroki, tapi beliau menolak memberikan referensi dengan
alasan tidak mengenal gw secara langsung, dan takut terkena sanksi hukum
kalo ternyata gw pernah terlibat kriminal (Whatttt????!!!@#$). Lalu gw
coba ke Ketua wilayah, namun beliau tidak di rumah. Trus gw coba ke
Ketua RT, gak ada juga di rumah. Untungnya, in the end I got some luck
at last. Ada ketua lingkungan yang available, dan setelah 4 kali ke
rumah Ketua RT, akhirnya bisa dapet juga tuh referensi. All is good,
semua dokumen kelengkapan udah gw kirim, tinggal nunggu final
announcement aja dan briefing soal tanda tangan kontrak.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">So
yeah, it's the end of my jobseeker story. A story of God's faithfulness. Maaf kalau judul-judul
chapternya terdengar lebay, hahaha. But that's honestly what I feel. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Pesanku
buat para jobseeker dimanapun kamu berada, jangan menyerah! The best is
yet to come. God always has something best for you. <i><b style="color: #38761d;">Sometimes we
need to hold on to our dreams, and don't give up. Because if we give up, there are probably thousand others out there who will not be
able to dream again. Whenever possible, work for something you're really passionate about. Because there's no point of doing something you don't like. Don't just work for money, but put all your effort for something worth fighting for, and do your best! </b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Can't wait to start my new adventure. I know it won't be easy, but one thing for sure, God is with me, He will help me and strengthen me. Amen<i> </i></span></span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-43376358657428768142012-03-29T23:46:00.002+07:002012-03-30T11:27:52.780+07:00Letter to the Hebrews (just my random thought)<div style="background-color: white; color: #660000; font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
So, kemaren I was wondering about who was the author of the letter to the Hebrews alias surat kepada orang Ibrani kalo pake bahasa gue mah. This letter was a bit different, and its author is mysterious. Mungkin kebanyakan orang berasumsi bahwa penulisnya adalah Paul, karena surat-surat sebelumnya adalah Paul's letters. But gue gak yakin kalo penulisnya adalah Paul. </div>
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Pertama, Paul selalu greets the readers and clearly states that the letter was from him (cek semua surat-surat dia terdahulu). So, anonymous was not his style. Apakah mungkin Paul iseng kali ini gak kasih nama? I don't know</div>
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Kedua, gaya penulisan dan bahasanya tidak seperti gaya bahasa Paul. Openingnya lebih mirip tulisan John (baca kitab John and his first letter (1 John) ). Tapi again, gak ada bukti juga bahwa itu a letter from John. </div>
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Tapi kalo kata temen gue sih penutupnya agak-agak mirip ama suratnya Paul.</div>
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Bukti-bukti authorship dari Hebrew ini susah diketahui dari isi suratnya sendiri although I think ada beberapa clue implisit sih:</div>
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* He knows Timothy (Heb 13:23)</div>
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*He might be in Italy (Heb 13:24). I said "might", karena belum tentu juga dia di Italy. Yang kirim salam dari Italy itu bisa jadi orang-orang yang ada di Italy bilang ke dia untuk nitip salam (tapi dia sendiri gak di Italy), bisa juga orang-orang yang kirim salam itu lagi bersama-sama dia di Italy.</div>
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*Dia mungkin bukan salah satu dari apostles (Heb 2:3) ...<i>this salvation, which was first announced by the Lord, <b>was confirmed to us by those who heard him. </b></i>Tapi ini juga asumsi sih. Si penulis bisa aja ngomong gitu untuk membahasakan reader-nya yang notabene gak menjadi saksi langsung.</div>
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Lalu gue mencoba mencari rekam jejak para rasul di Kisah Para Rasul, untuk mencari kira-kira siapa aja yang kemungkinan kenal Timothy, dan pernah ke Italy. But that doesn't help me to narrow it down though</div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Then, while I was still thinking about this, I tried to google it. Ternyata emang ini udah sejak lama jadi misteri. Coba aja google </span><i style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">the writer of the letters to the hebrews</i><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">, pasti banyak yang keluar. Memang, its authorship masih tetap misterius, but its a great letter, a very strong one, nonetheless. Nah, sementara sodara-sodara semua ikut mikir juga, meneliti, mempelajari, dan mencari-cari juga, saya mau tidur dulu yah. Sekian edisi random thought di tengah malam</span>.</div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-59647051189087677362012-03-29T15:20:00.002+07:002012-03-30T12:17:04.192+07:00How Do I Know I Am Hearing A Word From God?<div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
Looking through some old emails, and I stumbled upon this one article that was sent by my dearest friend and spiritual mother, Libertha. I don't know for sure if this is her own writing or she got it from somewhere else. But nevertheless, it still blesses me. Thought I might share it with you and hope it will bless you too</div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>There
is no way of knowing for certain that someone is hearing from God,
unless that person has been listening to God over a long period of time
and then testing what he or she has heard. Such people have become
accustomed to discerning God's voice (see John 10:27). There are many
others, however, who think they are hearing from God when maybe they are
not. How annoying are the superspiritual who always say, "God told me
this--God told me that--God told me this other." It seems that their
every thought is a revelation from God. God does not customarily operate
that way. He speaks to us, but He does not chatter away, day in and day
out, the way some people claim He does. This has been my experience,
and it is the concept that is in accordance with the biblical record. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>The
Bible says that we
can tell if someone is a prophet by seeing if what he has said comes to
pass (see Deuteronomy 18:22). That is a very pragmatic test, and it
works. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>A friend who purported to
hear from God told me, "My second child is going to be a boy. God told
me." His second child was a girl. He said, "Well, God told me that it
was not second child who was going to be a boy, but the third child."
His third child was a girl too. At that point I determined, That brother
isn't hearing from God. It was clear: He made a statement, supposedly
from God, that did not come to pass. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>There
is no shortcut to spiritual understanding. You have to learn to walk
with God and to know His voice; otherwise, you will mistake your own
voice for His. You even may be fooled by the voice of Satan, or you may
hear the clamoring voice of the world. It is so easy to get these voices
mixed up. Usually, God speaks to us in a still, small, quiet voice (see
I Kings 19:11-13). It takes time, prayer, and waiting on
God to hear His voice. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Nor does
God scatter His pearls around recklessly. He said, "You will find Him if
you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul" (Deuteronomy
4:29). God does not reveal Himself to every casual onlooker who would
take sacred things and play with them like toys. I have known some
adults who treated the gifts of God as if they were just little baubles
to play with. To please God and to receive counsel from Him, people must
be both determined and serious. </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>How
do we succeed in hearing God's voice? By spending time with God. The
ultimate is not merely to get direction from God; the ultimate is to
know God. God can make it difficult for us to get into His presence,
because He wants to see if we truly will expend the spiritual energy and
exercise necessary to do so. Will we stop certain sins? Will we get rid
of things that hinder us? Will we truly seek Him with all of our
hearts? </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Some people only want a quick fix. "God, tell me how to
make money on this business deal, please. See you next time!" And then
that is the end of it. But God wants to be treated with reverence and
deference that His nature warrants. He wants to change us, not merely
give us quick answers to difficult problems. We will never be changed
unless we come into His presence, spend time with Him, and allow Him to
purify us from our sinful nature</i></span></div>
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</div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-9440643092921269052012-03-12T23:38:00.001+07:002012-03-14T12:02:50.514+07:00Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness<div style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">
<i>Ahhh..., been abandoned this blog for more than a month. Many things happened, but I wouldn't share it today. In fact, I'm preparing it as a whole story to share later.</i></div>
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<i>Today, I would like to share about something I've been meditating. I also share it with my two best friends via email as our online connect group (cell group/ bible study group)</i></div>
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Today I'd like to invite you to meditate over a simple verse that we're all familiar with:<br />
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<span style="color: #274e13; font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">Matthew 6:33 But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.</span><br />
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I
don't know about you, but for many years I have considered this verse
as a prerequisite for getting the "all these things". You know, all
things we need/want in life, such as prosperity, health, job/career,
future husband/wife, successful ministry, happy marriage, or just getting
good marks in exams. For instance, when I only got a C or D for
my exam back then, I always thought that it was because I didn't seek
His kingdom first. Then I tried to read the bible more often, pray more
often, get more involved in ministry, and then study hard to fulfill the
"seek first His kingdom and His righteousness". Or, when I've been
waiting for a miracle for so
long and there's not a single clue about it at all, I thought that it
might be...because I had not sought His kingdom enough, so it has not been given to me yet. Also, when I shared to some
christian friends about how I had not been successful in my study in the past, no luck in relationship, and had not got things I've been waiting
for, they cited this verse for me.<br />
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So in my own paraphrase, I thought that <span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="color: #0b5394;">I have to seek His kingdom and His righteousness first, in order to get all these things given to me as well</span>. </span>Can you see how it's twisted?<br />
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I come to realize about this error, I feel that Holy Spirit shed a
light on me concerning this. I believe that it's about focus. Are we
focusing on earthly things (food, clothing, etc.) as mentioned in the
passage, or are we really focusing on His kingdom and His righteousness?
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Or.....,to make it more complicated <img alt=";) winking" src="http://mail.yimg.com/ok/u/assets/img/emoticons/emo3.gif" />, are we trying to focus on His kingdom and His righteousness because we're hoping that all those things will be given to us?</div>
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Jesus
clearly said that we should not worry about all of our needs in life
because Father in heaven knows it all. Also, God wants us to <span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: #274e13;">set our minds on things above, not on earthly things (Col 3:2)</span>.</span>
Why? I think the previous and next verses cover it very well (Col 3:1,
3, 4). Because we have been raised with Christ, our lives are now hidden
with Christ in God. In other words, our citizenship is no longer of
this world. Since we're alive in Christ, our citizenship is of the
kingdom of God. If we are the citizens of His kingdom, then seeking His
kingdom and His righteousness is pretty natural, isn't it? So, we'll
seek His kingdom and righteousness for the sake of His kingdom and
righteousness themselves, because we are its citizen. No more
wrong/hidden motives.<br />
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Now the question is.....what are His
kingdom and His righteousness? How can wee seek them if we don't know
what or where they are? Are they merely about doing more things in the ministry, or spending more time for reading the bible?</div>
<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">Jesus gives various parables about the kingdom
of God. It is like a mustard seed, yeast, parable of the sower, net,
pearl, hidden treasure, a landowner who hires workers, a king who
prepared a wedding banquet, the ten virgins, etc. I believe Holy spirit
will reveal to us the truth about all these things. For me, it's about
living a life in this world with heavenly principles. And thankfully, we
have our personal Guide on this. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">The last question, what about
those things we need/want/hope for. Is it wrong wanting them? Aren't
future spouse, marriage, ministry thingy considered as heavenly things?
I'll let you have your thought on this</span><img alt=";)
winking" src="http://mail.yimg.com/ok/u/assets/img/emoticons/emo3.gif" style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;" /><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="color: #20124d; font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"> </span></span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-87564811731280885382012-02-06T21:10:00.001+07:002012-03-11T21:39:28.530+07:00Hukum Perbandingan<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Gue bukan mau ngebahas matematika atau fisika disini, tapi just a simple phenomena in our daily life koq, yaitu "comparison" a.k.a perbandingan. Siapa yang pernah dibanding-bandingin sama orang lain?Ato siapa yang pernah membanding-bandingkan (entah itu membandingkan diri sendiri dengan orang lain, atau membandingkan orang lain dengan orang lain lagi)?Hayo ngacungg....!!!! Gue pernah, baik yang dibandingkan atopun membandingkan.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Sekarang gue mau ngebahas yang tentang kita sebagai objek penderita atau objek perbandingan dulu yaa. Familiar gak dengan beberapa ungkapan di bawah ini?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Itu liat anaknya Bu A tuh, udah ganteng, pinter, kerjaannya bagus lagi, udah manager sekarang. Kamu, dari dulu gak naik-naik. Apa yang kamu harapkan sih dengan jadi guru SD gitu?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Liat tuh temenmu, seumuran kamu udah merit. Kamu koq punya pacar aja kagak?Cobalah mikir untuk masa depan juga, jangan kelamaan hidup sendiri"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Eh, pacar barunya si B cantik yah, langsing, putih lagi. Pinter juga dia cari ganti lo" (asli...ini mah kejem bgttt)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Wah, hebat ya si X, masih muda, pendidikannya tinggi lagi, tapi mau memberi diri untuk jadi misionaris di pedalaman. Kamu harusnya contoh dia tuh. Kalo cuma kerja di dunia sekuler mah kurang heroik."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Ooh...kamu adiknya si Y yah. Kakakmu putih, koq kamu item?"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"Waaah...keren yah dia kalo mimpin worship, sampe merinding deh gue rasanya kalo denger dia nyanyi. Kalo elu kayaknya lebih merdu kalo diem deh".</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">and so on...and so on...., dziiiiiiiigggg.....rasanya pengen ditonjok deh orang-orang yang ngomong itu. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Asli, bisa sakit hati tuh kalo gak punya jurus penangkal petir, eh kamsudnya untuk menangkal kata-kata miring itu. Nah, jurusnya apa nih?</span></div>
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<i><b><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Know your true identity.</span></b></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Identitas kita gak ditentukan oleh apa kata orang tentang kita. Contohnya gini, kita kan manusia, nah ketika suatu hari seseorang marah-marah dan menyumpahi kita dengan bilang "kucing lo!", apakah saat itu juga kita berubah jadi kucing??? enggak kan..., kita tetep manusia. Likewise, ketika ada suara-suara lain yang mengatakan "<i>you're a loser, you're not worthy, you're rejected, you're ugly, you're condemned, you're not qualified.</i>...", itu tidak merubah identitas kita. Our true identity is what God says about us</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">"You are chosen (Eph 1:4, 1Ptr 2:9), you are accepted (Eph 1:6), you are My child (John 1:12-13), you are worthy (Isaiah 43:4), you are forgiven (Eph 4:32), you are more than a conqueror (Roman 8:37), you are predestined (Eph 1:11)" dan lebih banyak lagi identitas kita di dalam Kristus kalo kita mau mencari lebih dalam lagi di alkitab. We got that new identity once we accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour. Buat kamu-kamu yang belum memiliki new identity in Christ, dan ingin sekali menjadi ciptaan baru dalam Kristus, memiliki relasi yang benar dengan Kristus, you can start it <a href="http://www.rosalia-thedreamer.blogspot.com/2011/03/prayer-for-your-salvation.html">HERE</a>.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">Harga diri kita tidak ditentukan dari apa pandangan orang tentang kita atau apa yang mereka katakan tentang kita. Harga diri kita juga bukan ditentukan dari penampilan luar dan achievements kita, bukan dari apa pekerjaan kita, bakat/talenta kita, siapa suami/istri/pacar kita, ato berapa banyak saldo kita di bank. Karena sebagai orang-orang yang sudah ditebus, harga kita seharga hidup Yesus sendiri (1Cor7:23, John 3:16). So, don't let the judgements from other people membuat kita ragu tentang identitas kita. Keep moving on with our eyes fixed on Jesus, dan yang terakhir, dengan mencontoh teladan Yesus kita bisa mengampuni orang-orang itu dan berdoa "<i>Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing (saying)".</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS',sans-serif;">It turned out that gue males nulis sambungannya, alias inspirasinya udah entah kemana. So sorry, hehe. Ntar kalo dah dapet revelation soal perbandingan ini lagi baru gue tulis deh </span><br />
</div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-32291859632194201712012-02-04T20:27:00.001+07:002012-02-04T20:27:45.907+07:00Kari Kepiting<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kayaknya dah lama gak nulis resep masakan nih. Tadi gue barusan bikin kari kepiting, gara-gara keponakan gue pengen banget makan kepiting. Resepnya gue dapet dari sohib gue si Mel, dengan modifikasi seperlunya. Surprisingly it turned out enak bangeeeettt looh...., berarti gue gak parah-parah banget lah, masih bisa masak ternyata, hehe. Cuman nih ya, tangan perih semua gara-gara makannya penuh perjuangan. Eniwei, gue kebanyakan ngelanturnya, ini dia nih resepnya</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 4 ekor kepiting ukuran sedang (approx. 1.5-2 kg)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 1L santan (atau 1.5L kalo suka kuahnya kental)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- minyak untuk menumis</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- garam dan gula pasir secukupnya</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Bumbu-bumbu yang dihaluskan:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 1 sendok teh ketumbar</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 3 siung bawang putih</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 6 siung bawang merah</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 4 buah cabe merah besar, bersihkan bijinya</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 3 buah cabe rawit (kalo mau pedes, sesuai selera)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 3 ruas kunyit</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 2 cm ruas jahe</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 3 lembar daun jeruk purut</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 1 batang sereh yang besar</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 2 cm lengkuas</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- 1 siung bawang bombay ukuran kecil, diiris halus, dan</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Cara membuat:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Rebus kepiting sampai berubah warna, gak usah terlalu lama, cuman biar kepitingnya mati doank</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Bersihkan kepiting (buang insangnya, sikat cangkangnya pake sikat gigi sampe bersih PS. gak usah pake odol ya :-D)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Panaskan minyak goreng secukupnya, tumis bumbu yang sudah dihaluskan, tambahkan sereh dan lengkuas yang sudah dimemarkan, sama bawang bombay yang sudah diiris halus.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Setelah bumbu matang dan harum, masukkan santan sambil terus diaduk-aduk biar santan gak pecah. Apinya sedang aja. Masak sampai mendidih</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Masukkan kepiting, tambahkan garam dan gula pasir sesuai selera, masak sampai kuah mengental dan bumbu meresap (sekitar 20-25 menit). Jaga api jangan terlalu besar, dan sesekali diaduk biar santan gak pecah</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">- Terakhir, masukkan irisan daun bawang, masak kira-kira 2 menit lagi, trus matikan api.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Selamat mencoba!</span></div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-88724611040267798312012-02-03T14:14:00.001+07:002012-02-03T19:41:13.221+07:00When things are getting harder<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Have you ever been or are you in that situation right now?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Apakah kamu mengalami masa-masa dimana sepertinya kamu sedang naik gunung, dan tanjakannya semakin curam sementara tenagamu sudah terkuras?Ato kamu lagi lari keliling lapangan bola, udah tinggal putaran terakhir nih, tapi sepertinya gak nyampe-nyampe? Ato lagi panjat tebing, ujungnya udah keliatan, tapi tangan udah pegel2, kesemutan dan kayak gak sanggup naik lagi? Things are getting harder and you have all intentions to give up.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Hey, I tell you what. By all means don't give up and don't lose heart. When things are getting harder, you could be one step closer to your victory, one step closer to your destiny. Who knows, the next step might be the one that will take you there. It is getting harder because the devil might know that if he didn't make you to give up, you will cause a catastrophe for him. Jadi sodara-sodara, jangan menyerah!!!! (that pic is just too cute to express giving up :D)</span><br />
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<a name='more'></a><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Gue teringat sama nabi Elia. Baca deh 1 raja-raja 19. Disitu Elia dah frustasi, campur takut, karena mau dikejar-kejar dan dibunuh. dia dah kerja keras, sendirian pula, karena nabi2 Tuhan yg laen dah dihabisin, dan sekarang dia jadi most wantednya ratu iiihhh sebel aka Izebel. Elijah was not only depressed, but he was suicidal. Dia dah mau bunuh diri, tapi dia minta Tuhan sih yang cabut nyawanya (smart huh!), liat ayat 4. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Tapi apa yang terjadi?No no no, belum saatnya untuk mati, Elia. Tuhan kasih roti bakar, sama minum, trus dia menempuh perjalanan panjang sampe akhirnya berjumpa dengan Tuhan sendiri. Lalu Tuhan kasih instruksi detil ke dia, and the next thing we know, Elia ketemu sama penerusnya, Elisa, and then there was a reformation in Israel. Ahab, the ungodly king was put to death, dan Izebel istrinya akhirnya mati di tangan orang yang diurapi Elia.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Mungkin kamu lagi ngadepin jalan buntu, thesis mu gak kelar-kelar, bingung mau mulai dari mana. Mungkin kamu dah berdoa bertahun-tahun tapi papa ato mamamu belum bertobat juga. Mungkin kamu udah saturated dengan keadaan keluargamu yang bikin kepala mau pecah, ortu yang bertengkar terus dan mengancam mau cerai. Mungkin kamu menunggu sang pangeran yang udah didoain lamaaaaa banget tapi gak muncul-muncul juga. Mungkin kamu dah berdoa bertahun-tahun untuk kesembuhan orang yang kamu cintai, tapi belum ada perubahan juga. Mungkin kamu lagi mencari kerja dan menunggu janji Tuhan, tapi gak ada tanda-tanda invitation untuk interview ato test. Mungkin kamu dah tau bahwa he/she is the one from God for you, tapi koq orangnya cuek-cuek aja, dan kamu capek nunggu. Mungkin kamu sedang stuck dengan keadaan pelayananmu, dan ingin sekali ada breaktrhough. Ato mungkin kamu sedang menantikan penggenapan visi ato janji Tuhan dalam hidupmu. The list could be endless.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Well, apapun situasimu, don't give up. Remember, things are getting harder because you might be one step closer to victory. His time is not your time. Everything will happen right in His appointed time. </span><br />
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<i style="color: #0b5394; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Hab 2:3, MSG "This vision-message is a witness pointing to what's coming. It aches for the coming--it can hardly wait! And it doesn't lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time"</i><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Jangan membatasi Tuhan dengan situasi kita. Sometimes we reduce His image into our own imagination about who we think He is. Remember that He is God, and He can change our situations only in one flip of a hand. See things from His perspective, and look up to Jesus.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>Col 3:1-2, MSG</i></span><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> "</span><span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. </i></span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #0b5394;"><i>Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ--that's where the action is. See things from his perspective"</i></span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Kalo kita ngeliat situasi sekeliling kita dengan mata jasmani kita, aduuh, rasanya pengen nyerah deh. Tapi Tuhan minta kita </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">see things from His perspective. </i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">So,</span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> </i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Keep the faith and keep trusting Him no matter what! Itu saja, wassalam :D</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Even when it hurts</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Even when it's hard</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Even when it all just falls apart</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">I will run to You</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Cause I know that You are</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Lover of my soul</span><br />
<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Healer of my scars</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #ebebeb; color: #333333; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px; text-align: left;">Psalm 73:26 "My heart and my flesh may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever"</span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-15045835681631564622012-01-21T18:16:00.000+07:002012-01-21T20:27:42.172+07:00When Silence is The Answer<br />
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but silence was all I could find</div>
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Then I went down to the deepest sea</div>
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to a place long forgotten and abandoned</div>
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It might be hidden in between treasures</div>
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but there was only silence</div>
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Then I flew to the horizon</div>
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thinking that the answer might be hidden </div>
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in a place where heaven and earth collide</div>
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but there was only silence</div>
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Then I stopped, paused, selah...</div>
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When silence is the answer, will I still trust Him?</div>
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But silence........is not the end!</div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Bulan lalu gue baca artikel yg bagus dari blognya Christine Caine. Ini tentang masa penantian yg panjang, tentang Musa yg ketemu 'burning bush'. So, buat kamu-kamu yang juga sedang dalam masa penantian, baca deh artikelnya <a href="http://www.equipandempower.org/blog/index.php/2011/12/07/destiny_has_a_place">HERE</a>. Artikel-artikel lain di blognya <a href="http://www.equipandempower.org/blog">Christine Caine</a> yang lain jg bagus-bagus koq, singkat, padat, dan powerful. Gue suka ama bible teaching dia, and it was a privilege having heard her teaching LIVE =D. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Gue cuma mau modify artikel di atas dan gue sesuaikan ama kondisi gue skrg. And let the curhat begin..., hihihi. Tp lbh seru kalo baca artikel aslinya dulu di link di atas. Ternyata ya nasib gue gak jauh-jauh lah sama nasibnya Musa, hehe. Bedanya kalo dia menggembalakan Shaun the sheep, eh domba-domba father-in-law-nya, gue 'menggembalakan' ayam dan anjing gue :p.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Ocha
was in her father’s house in a small town for more than 9 months, taking care of the backyard, chickens, and Mopi &
Tesi, the dogs of her father.</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>It
was in this rainy, green, humid, back of nowhere, and quiet place that God turned
up to launch Ocha as the leader of one greatest emancipation programs ever. (Amen)</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>The
BURNING BUSH was right there in the green and humid place</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>Ocha
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had forgotten her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
had forsaken her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
was punishing her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
had rejected her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
had missed her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
could not see her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
could not hear her<br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>God
did not care about her</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>She
was in the backyard, in the back of nowhere with dogs and chickens, <b>doing something
unrelated to her destiny</b>. She probably wondered why she had been brought to
study and take a higher engineering degree in Sydney early on in life, but now found herself
in that place...</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>It
was lonely.<br />
It was not in the limelight.<br />
It was monotonous, and boring (but enjoyable sometimes).</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Do you ever
feel you are in that place?</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i>I am in that place now</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: red; font-size: small;"><i><span style="color: #a64d79;">But here it comes the best part.....</span></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">The truth is
we all come to that place at one time or another, but it is in that place...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">1. God is
preparing you for what He has already prepared for you.<br />
2. God is doing a work in you in order to do a great work through you.<br />
3. More is going on than what you see or know.<br />
4. You are learning to trust God in the midst of your circumstances.<br />
5. You are developing strength and courage for the adventure ahead.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Don't give
up<br />
Don't run away<br />
Don't be despondent<br />
Keep trusting God<br />
Keep believing God<br />
Keep honoring God<br />
Keep growing in God<br />
Keep submitting to leadership<br />
Keep doing what you know to do</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Look for the
burning bush in the midst of your desert. He is right there.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">He will
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<span style="color: #741b47; font-size: small;">Thanks God, that was really encouraging. And thanks Christine...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">PS. My dogs said Hi to all of you =)</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">We are all quite familiar with the saying "just follow your heart". Probably we even give that kind of advice too when a friend asks our opinion in deciding something. But little did we know that our hearts can be deceptive. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Feeling is a conscious subjective experience of emotion (Wikipedia) or an emotional state of reaction, the overall quality of one's awareness, and the capacity to respond emotionally, especially with the higher emotions (Webster). Feeling is temporary, has its ups and downs. And it is very dangerous to decide something based solely on what we feel in our hearts, because it is unstable and sometimes unreliable.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">I'm not talking about deciding what pizza should you choose, meat-lovers or vegetarians; which dress should you wear to the party; or which smart phone to buy. But, what about deciding something crucial in your life, such as marrying someone, choosing a major in a university, choosing a job, participating in a certain ministry, restoring a broken relationship, choosing what's best for your kid's education, moving to another town, adopting a baby, etc. which has the long lasting impact or probably even eternal? </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Why shouldn't we just follow our hearts? Following our hearts will mostly be like this: If we don't feel like it, we won't do it/take it. If we feel like it, we'll do it/take it without thinking much further. For a simple example: A man asked you out, and you think Ahh...he is cute, funny, just swept you off your feet, and you like him. So you would accept his offer to be his girlfriend without a second thought.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">There are many more examples of deciding something by following your heart, if you know what I mean.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">Following the heart that has not been sanctified will normally lead us to following our ego.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">So, what should we do then? Good news, there is one condition that makes it safe to follow our hearts. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">What should we guard our hearts from? We should keep our hearts free from pollutants. What are these pollutants? There are many of them: lust, unforgiveness, jealousy, hatred, idolatry, godlessness, selfishness, evil desires, pride, prejudice, fear, and so on. These pollutants are like thieves that will steal our hearts piece by piece, spread diseases, and leave our hearts rotten in the inside. So, we must guard our hearts with all diligence just like the watchmen watch over the city through out the night, because what is seen on the outside, comes from the inside.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;"><i><b> A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth the good. And an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart brings forth the evil. For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks. (MKJV)</b></i></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: small;">That's why we must be careful about what we store up inside. Free our hearts from any evil desires, and ask Jesus to come into our hearts. We clean it up, (our wellspring of life), and fill it with the LIFE Himself. Let Him take control of our hearts. Fill our hearts with God's words, and our hearts will be sanctified. If we abide in Jesus, and we let Him takes control over our hearts, then it is safe to "follow your heart".</span></div>
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<br />Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-8900956414902968712012-01-05T09:49:00.001+07:002012-01-05T09:49:57.424+07:00A sketch from the heart<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="color: black;">Something that burns deep inside my heart</span><i><b> </b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves,</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>for the rights of all who are destitute.</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>Speak up and judge fairly;</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>defend the rights of the poor and needy" (Proverb 31:8-9)</b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>because the Lord has anointed me</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>to preach good news to the poor.</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>to proclaim freedom for the captives,</b></i></span></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i><b>and release from darkness for the prisoners" (Isaiah 61:1) </b></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><span style="color: black;">I believe this is what I was made for</span><i><b> </b></i><i><b> </b></i></span></span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-32901216173581591162012-01-03T20:55:00.000+07:002012-01-07T08:23:43.958+07:00What will you choose?<div style="color: black;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">what are you going to do with the rest of them?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it is not too late to make a new goal</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it is not too late to set a new standard</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">it is not too late to start dreaming</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">and put an effort to make it come true</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">Where would you want to end up by the end of this year?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">I'm sure it will be determined by the choices you make day by day</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to be a thanks-giver, not a complainer</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to be patient, and not hasty</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose life, and not death</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to love</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to be kind</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to be content </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose to be faithful</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">choose the narrow road</span></div>
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<i style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span class="woj">Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it</span></i><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i>. </i></span><span class="woj"><i style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;">But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it</i>.</span><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><i> -Jesus Christ- (Matthew 7:13-14, NIV)</i></span></div>
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You are good You are good, when there's nothing good in me<br />
You are love You are love, on display for all to see<br />
You are light You are light, when the darkness closes in<br />
You are hope You are hope, You have covered all my sin<br />
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You are peace You are peace, when my fear is crippling<br />
You are true You are true, even in my wandering<br />
You are joy You are joy, You're the reason that I sing<br />
You are life You are life, in You death has lost its sting<br />
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And oh I'm running to Your arms, I'm running to Your arms<br />
the riches of Your love will always be enough<br />
nothing compares to Your embrace<br />
light of the world forever reign<br />
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You are more You are more than my words could ever say<br />
You are Lord You are Lord, all creation will proclaim<br />
You are here You are here, in Your presence I am made whole<br />
You are God You are God, of all else I'm letting go<br />
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My heart will sing no other name<br />
Jesus......Jesus<br />
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<b><i>To all sweet bloggers in the world</i></b></div>
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<b><i><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;">I would like to say</span></i></b> ...............</div>
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<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i>May this year be a year of breakthrough for all of you</i></span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i>Remember that God is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above, and beyond what we could ask for or imagine. Let's make this year count.</i></span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #990000;"><span style="font-family: Georgia,"Times New Roman",serif;"><i>God bless you all</i></span></span></b><br />
<br />Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-74531053806341412712011-12-30T17:42:00.000+07:002012-01-04T20:43:26.980+07:00Catatan Akhir Tahun 2011<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Hufffttt....., tau-tau dah akhir tahun lagi neh. Apa aja ya yg udah terjadi taun ini?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">First, gue sebut tahun ini adalah 'the unexpected year'. Bukan diartikan sebagai 'tahun yg tdk diharapkan' loh ya..., tapi lebih ke 'tak terduga' ato 'di luar dugaan', ato 'meleset dari perkiraan', 'di luar rencana', dan sejenisnya.....</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Dulu, di awal taun ini gue dah pe-de dengan segudang rencana. Lulus kuliah, balik ke indo, daftar ke UNV (United Nation Volunteer), trus dapet assignment, ato ngelamar kerja di tempat2 yg menawarkan petualangan (harusnya gue ikut Jejak Petualang aja kali ya), dapet kerja di tempat yg seruuu, trus kerja 2 thn, loving my job, trus mau lanjut kuliah lagi 2013. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Gue dulu bayanginnya taun ini gue bakal kerja di NGO yg ngurusin anak-anak gak mampu, yang di tempat-tempat terpencil gitu, ngajar anak-anak itu, sambil menggunakan ilmu engineering gue utk membangun daerah itu, misalnya pengolahan sampah, ato pemurnian air.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Ato kalo gak bisa kerja kayak yg gue sebut tadi ya, at least gue dapet kerja di perusahaan bagus supaya gaji gue bisa gue gunakan juga buat berpartner sama pelayanan/organisasi yang fokusnya children well-being ato anti human trafficking, dan juga ladang misi *cieeehhhh, teuteup hatinya misi booo....</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> </span> <span style="color: #38761d;"> </span><span style="color: lime;"> </span><i style="color: #38761d; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><b>In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps</b></i><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">1 bulan...2 bulan...3 bulan...4 bulan...5, 6, 7, 8, dan akhirnya ini hampir 9 bulan setelah kepulangan gue ke Indonesia, ternyata....gue gak kemana-mana, masih diijinkan Tuhan untuk menikmati liburan tanpa batas (menganggur-red). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> <b><i style="color: #38761d;">"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways", declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts"</i></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Ternyata memang gak sesuai rencana gue. Sembilan bulan gue mondar-mandir, dan lontang-lantung. Mungkin ibu2 yg hamil pas gue balik ke sini sekarang dah pada melahirkan :D.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Sembilan bulan gue mempertahankan gelar high quality jomblo dan jobseeker, hehe :). Tapi memang rencana Tuhan selalu lebih baik. Dia pengen meruntuhkan semua ego dan kesombongan gue dulu.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Emang ini gue gak sampe 40 thn sih, gile aje kalo 40 thn nganggur kayak gini, tidaaakk. But this is a wilderness for me, where my heart was tested, apakah gue mengeluh (bahasa jawanya nggrundel), marah-marah sama Tuhan, ato tetep bersyukur. Puji Tuhan, gue berusaha utk memiliki sikap hati yg terakhir itu. Ada kalanya gw protes dan bertanya-tanya sama Tuhan "kapan...kapan..kapan Tuhan?", ato "mana..mana..mana...?", dan "kemana...kemana..kemana...?"</span> <span style="font-size: x-small;">(sambil goyang Ayu TingTing)</span>.<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"> Tapi setiap kali gue merenung, selalu aja... there are countless things I could thank God for, and the list of my thanksgiving prayer is always almost endless. Gue masih bisa bernapas, sehat, makan, tidur, dan mandi gratis, punya keluarga, temen-temen, dan 2 anjing lucu, bisa pergi-pergi kemanapun gue mau, bisa punya waktu banyak untuk baca, doa, spend time with God, tidur, dan maen games sepuasnya, haha. Semua orang yang kerja (terutama yg suntuk ama kerjaannya) aja ngiri ama gue. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Ada banyak hal yang Tuhan ajarkan sama gue tahun ini. Dari berdiam diri dan menanti-nantikan Dia, gue mendapat kekuatan baru, dan pewahyuan baru. Tahun ini terutama gue memiliki quality time sama keluarga gue, khususnya my Daddy. Gue deket banget ama bokap. Gue bersyukur, gue memiliki hubungan yg baik dgn bokap gue, dan itu membuat gue menyadari bahwa kasih Bapa di surga itu jauh lbh besar dan jauh lbh indah dari ini. I have a sweet relationship with my father and also 2 big brothers, the relationship which many girls would have to fight for. And for those who never have such kind of relationship might have something missing in their hearts <b><span style="font-size: x-small;">(even trying to fulfill it by seeking opposite sex's attention)</span></b>, which only God can heal.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Intinya, gak ada tahun yang gak baik. Setiap tahun-tahun umur kita adalah bukti bahwa Tuhan itu setia, and His love endures forever. Meskipun berat badan gue turun 5 kilo tahun ini, Tuhan tetep setia. Meskipun gue belum dapet kerjaan dan masih menjomblo, Tuhan tetep setia. Meskipun.....(isi sendiri), Tuhan tetep setia. Kasih setia Tuhan itu unconditional. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">So, apapun yang kamu alami tahun ini: flat, gado-gado, banyak shock, biasa-biasa aja, kurang tantangan, monoton, berat, exciting, seru, susah, sedih, berbunga-bunga, patah hati, ato apapun itu, bersyukurlah......., give thanks to the Lord with a grateful heart. Aaaand...., trust the Lord for 2012. Commit your plans to the Lord, and completely trust Him. He knows the best for us, and He already knows what 2012 will bring. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Merry Christmas and Have a Happy New Year, dear bloggers! Have a fantastic 2012 and enjoy an exciting journey with God. </span>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-40797812577360952152011-12-29T21:43:00.000+07:002011-12-30T21:30:58.480+07:00I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD<div style="color: blue; font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">
My random thought, and also my commitment.....</div>
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Though I know I’m getting older </div>
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and a lot of people say it’s time to get married</div>
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Until today, I haven’t met my future husband yet</div>
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or I just have not known who is he yet,</div>
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but I believe that he is a real Godly man who is worth waiting for (and praying for).</div>
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People might say I’m too picky</div>
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but I would say, I have to be strictly picky</div>
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because I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD.</div>
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Married is once in a lifetime decision</div>
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A commitment to love,</div>
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share my life with him until death separates us</div>
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and glorify God all the days of our lives</div>
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So, I will not accept any one less than the best that God has for me.</div>
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Although I might have to wait many more years for the right person </div>
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to share life, godly home, and God’s vision.</div>
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People keep asking and mocking</div>
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Friends around me are getting married, have got married, or have a boy/girlfriend</div>
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which supposedly created a peer-pressure,</div>
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but I won’t be pressured </div>
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and I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD by accepting the first fool who come across </div>
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or by accepting any born-again christian guy </div>
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just because he dares to say ‘I love you’</div>
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No no no, it won’t happen</div>
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because it requires more than just a gut </div>
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I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD, because GOD’S STANDARD IS NOW MINE</div>
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for me, marriage is neither a destination, nor a purpose in life</div>
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It is not about me or my future husband</div>
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It’s about God and our journey with God</div>
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God has to be the center of it all, even from this moment when we haven’t met each other</div>
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WARNING!!!: Marriage is neither a solution for your problem, nor an escape from A dissatisfaction of your current condition</div>
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Gue : belom kerja, masih pengacara (pengangguran banyak acara-Red) aja, hehe</div>
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Gue : udah jg</div>
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Kakak: elu kapan?</div>
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Gue : kapan-kapan (again)....</div>
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yak, begitulah, tampaknya lagunya Koes Plus, 'Kapan Kapan' menjadi jawaban andalan gue.</div>
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because, seriously I have no answer for those FAQ (Frequently Asked Question). Gue jadi udah kebal sama pertanyaan-pertanyaan yg entah udah berapa ratus/ribu kali orang tanya. Oh well, let the time unfold the mystery. Cheers!</div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-39990976480330199302011-12-15T22:32:00.000+07:002011-12-30T21:33:10.900+07:00My Masterpiece<div style="color: #274e13;">
I love photography. Here are some of my shots which I consider as 'well done'. </div>
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Well, I am not quite a pro yet though, but I think these are quite good.</div>
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Pretty NYE, but It was a very long day and I was worn out....waiting for the new year's eve. Won't do that again, but it was a nice experience though. I took this pic to learn how to photograph fireworks. I figured out that the best fireworks shot is the early ones because that's when the sky has not been filled with the smoke yet. After that, I can only capture smoke.</div>
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Hope you enjoy them. Cheers!</div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-1707580483917679252011-12-13T21:54:00.000+07:002011-12-30T21:34:54.438+07:00One Little Step at A Time<div style="color: purple;">
Sabtu lalu gue ketemuan sama salah seorang adik di youth ministry dulu, si Echa, dan dia nulis jg blog ttg pertemuan ini, tapi beda topik, haha. Lalu kami makan2, ngobrol2, saling menanyakan kabar kami masing2, dan kabar temen2 kami yg laen. At some point I was overwhelmed by the fact that some of our friends (who used to serve The Lord together with us) have chosen the path that we don't understand as a follower of Christ. Some chose to yoke with unbelievers, and some have been compromising with the world in some areas of life. Tapi dapat disimpulkan bahwa dua hal yang menjadi major issue nya adalah "pekerjaan" dan "teman hidup". Dua hal ini yang membuat banyak orang stumble and drifted from their tracks. Dua hal ini emang sensitif, bisa membuat orang semakin jauh, ato semakin dekat dgn Tuhan. Dan puji Tuhan, ini dua hal yang gue gak punya saat ini, hahaha :D. Perfect! But I will have them someday though.</div>
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But eniwei, sepanjang hari itu aku terus bertanya-tanya sama Tuhan. "koq bisa ya Tuhan, koq bisa", "padahal kan dulu mereka bla bla bla", "padahal kan dulu sama-sama pernah mengalami perjumpaan dgn Engkau", "padahal kan...dst..dst..dst.", "aku gak habis pikir Tuhan, kalo mereka bisa kayak gtu, gue yang tdk lbh kuat dari mereka ini pun tidak fail-proof donk", " koq bisa ya mereka mengingkari sendiri apa yang dulu mereka percayai?", "trus gimana Tuhan biar gak menyimpang dari track Mu?"</div>
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Praise God! He is good all the time, and He wasn't surprised with my questions. Instead, He has prepared the answer. Kemaren gue iseng-iseng baca lagi bukunya Joshua Harris yg judulnya "I Kissed Dating Goodbye". Gw gak akan bahas buku ini, tapi ada bagian yg tepat menjawab pertanyaan gw, dan itu diambil dari kisahnya Daud/David yang berzinah dgn Batsyeba (2 Samuel 11). Bayangkan, Daud adalah org yg takut akan Tuhan. Bahkan Tuhan sendiri bilang 'he is a man after My own heart', orang yg berkenan di hati Tuhan. Tapi dia bisa jatuh dlm perzinahan, dan berlanjut ke pembunuhan. An innocent shepherd boy, the psalmist had become and adulterer and a murderer. Apakah itu terjadi dengan tiba2? Tiba-tiba dia terbangun dan tersadar bahwa dia telah tidur dengan istri orang, lalu berkata "Oh my God, what have I done?" ? Apakah tiba-tiba dia kaget dan baru tersadar kalo perintahnya membuat Uria, suami dari perempuan itu mati? No no no, it didn't begin when he ended up in bed with Batsheba, it didn't begin when David kissed her. So, when did he cross the border and violate the line of purity. Di bukunya Josh Harris dideskripsikan dgn jelas</div>
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<i>It was one little step at a time. It happened when David lose his focus on God. When we first noticed David's slide toward sin, we see him on the rooftop of the palace. It was spring of the new year, and the kings should lead their armies to battle, but this year David didn't go to war. Instead, he stayed at home. </i>So, first clue is <b><span style="background-color: #990000;">David was not where he supposed to be</span></b>. Dia tdk berada di tempat yang seharusnya. He supposed to be in the front line of the battle, fighting.<i> Was this sin?not blatantly, but it was a small step away from God's plan.</i></div>
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<i>Next, the energy he should have exerted on the battlefield needed an outlet. Restless, he paced the palace rooftop. From there, he gazed upon a woman bathing. <b><span style="background-color: #990000;">He could have turned away from that sight and run from temptation, but he continued to feed his lust, he kept looking</span></b>. </i>Yak, dan ini another little step away from God. Dia harusnya bisa stop sampe disitu, tapi ternyata tidak. Kenapa dia terus melanjutkan 'penglihatannya'? Padahal kan dia udah pernah melihat tubuh wanita, istrinya banyak. Oke, this is the next step: <b style="background-color: #990000;">He coveted, desired what did not belong to him. </b>Dia mengingini milik orang lain, and that was sin. <i>Sin come in a form of a thought, and instead of rejecting that thought, he kept entertaining it and let it linger in his mind. </i>Sekali lagi, dia seharusnya bisa stop sampai disitu, tapi pikiran kotornya itu ternyata telah dibuahi, dan dia melancarkan aksi selanjutnya: menyuruh orang membawa Batsyeba kepadanya dan tidur dengannya (Koq Bastyeba mau sih????!!! gw jg gak habis pikir). Lalu akibat perbuatannya Batsyeba hamil, dan David kalang kabut karena takut ketauan aibnya. Soalnya gak mungkin Batsyeba hamil oleh suaminya sendiri, soalnya Uria, suaminya berada di medan perang. Kisah selengkapnya bisa baca di 2 Samuel 11 tadi, sampe akhirnya Daud menyuruh untuk menempatkan Uria di <i>front line of a fierce battle and abandon him so that he might be killed. </i>Ihh...kejem banget ya, gak nyangka deh mas Daud sampe segitunya yaah, sesuatu banget....</div>
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Ya itulah, semuanya dimulai dari hal kecil. Dia gak ikut perang padahal seharusnya maju perang, itu saja. He was not where he suppose to be, and he lose his focus from God. Demikian juga halnya, kalo kita lihat orang-orang yang dulu kita kenal berapi-api melayani Tuhan, ato mungkin kita sendiri, sekarang tidak lagi berapi-api, tetapi malah berkompromi dengan gaya hidup dunia ini: pacaran dgn prosedur yang gak bener, dgn cara-cara yg salah saat menjalaninya, bahkan pacaran dgn unbeliever, trus kompromi di pekerjaan, cinta uang, memikirkan diri sendiri saja, dll, semuanya pasti dimulai dari hal kecil. Oleh karena itu, kita harus berhati-hati, jagalah hati dengan segala kewaspadaan (Amsal 4:23, <i>Above all else, Guard your heart for it is the wellspring of life</i>), dan menjaga kelakuan kita tetap bersih, dengan menjaganya sesuai dengan Firman (Mazmur 119:9, <i>How can a young man keep his way pure? by living according to Your word</i>).</div>
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Di amsal kita diingatkan bahwa dosa,jalan orang fasik, jalan yang menyimpang itu diibaratkan sebagai adulteress, wanita pezinah. Proverb 7:27 "<i>Her house is a highway to the grave, leading down to the chambers of death". </i>Kebayang kalo udah sekali salah masuk jalan tol, pasti nyari puterannya lagi susah. Nah itu, kalo sekali dah menyimpang ke jalan orang fasik, ujungnya maut.<br />
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Lalu gw mengakhiri dialog gw dengan Tuhan dengan satu pertanyaan lagi "Lalu gimana dengan mereka yang udah terlanjur menyimpang, dan memilih jalan lain?". And God just comfortly said "Don't worry, I haven't quite finished with them yet. It is not the end". Yeahh..., thanks God, I believe somehow at some point of this life, You will bring them back to You. Amen!</div>
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Weeeww...gak kerasa ini dah akhir tahun lagi, dan setaon ini (2011) gw kayaknya gak banyak ngerjain apa-apa deh</span><span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">. Tapi aku juga belajar banyak hal. Well, may be this is a sabbatical year for me. But I can't thank God enough for what He has done for me this year. His mercy, favour, kindness, goodness, and everything. Ahhh...my heart is overflowed with thanksgiving. People might only see how easy my life was, this particular year, but God knows the truth, inside out.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Dan sebentar lagi dah mo thn 2012. Banyak orang yang takut kalo 2012 nanti bakal kiamat, the end of the world. Oh well, I don't believe that. Ini pasti gara-gara film kampring yang dulu itu. Fyi, sebenernya end of the world udah mulai dari kapan taon tuh, ini udah akhir jaman memang, liat aja tanda-tandanya dah persis ama yg dibilang di alkitab. Tanda-tanda akhir jaman nih diantaranya: people will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient, ungrateful, unholy, unforgiving, slanderous, etc (2Tim3:1-4). </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">Ada yg takut menghadapi 2012, tapi ada jg yg penuh harap. Ada banyak yg pengen merit 2012, dan pilih tanggal cantik 12-12-12, secara kalo udah 2013 ntar gak ada lagi 13-13-13?!?!@##</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;">But buat gue sendiri, gw berharap 2012 is a year of breakthrough. Though it is still unclear to me where will I be in 2012, and what will I do, but I have a full confidence in God, that He is already there, to pave a way for me, and to make sure that I will make it through. Terus terang, 2012 masih blank buat gw, gak ngerti, clueless, oblivious, but it can only means that I have to fasten my trust in God. Well, whatever you may hold oh 2012, I will welcome you with a big smile :))!!!</span></div>Rosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8835368528472525382.post-30925665220825532722011-11-23T07:47:00.000+07:002011-12-30T21:56:02.179+07:00DreamsI'm not craving for a nice trip to Europe<br />
to visit places where people repeatedly marvel at their beauties<br />
I'm not craving for a luxurious and comfortable life<br />
where we can have a comfy house, car(s)<br />
and probably go on a nice holiday every year<br />
I'm not dreaming of getting married a.s.a.p<br />
and then have a nice little family<br />
like many girls might dream<br />
I'm not dreaming of getting a job in a multinational company<br />
cashing out million dollars, so I can buy things for my family<br />
and provide a financial security for my parents at their sixties.<br />
Please don't get me wrong, I didn't say that those are wrong<br />
For some people, those might become their goals and achievements for life<br />
And that's fine <br />
But those just don't work for me<br />
I would rather be in a third world country<br />
somewhere out there where my hands are needed most<br />
helping girls to gain the strength to dream again<br />
helping those who've been ruined, to build their lives again <br />
I would rather be amongst those who are oppressed<br />
and see the smile rises on their faces again<br />
I would rather be with legends<br />
who forsake their own lives for the well-being and freedom of many<br />
I would rather be with them<br />
When life is getting tougher, when the world is getting selfish<br />
Let us be among those who are selfless<br />
But I just find a tough time thinking about where to start<br />
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Well, perhaps I can just start right here, right now<br />
with what I haveRosaliahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04146258724414958325noreply@blogger.com3