Tuesday 8 June 2010

Disoriented

There are moments in life when I feel .....disoriented....
and this time is one of those :p
It's like you're sprinting in full speed toward one direction, then suddenly you have no idea where are you heading to.
Or...it's like you're making every effort to do something you once dreamin' of, then suddenly at some point you're asking "why am i doing this?".
Or....probably it's like going to a battle with full armor, riding a horse in a full speed, ready to draw a sword, but then actually have no idea which one is the enemy.
Okay, I might be a little bit exaggerating, that last one is silly :p,
but somehow that's what I feel now, as I don't know where I should go. I have no idea where to start , and don't know what am I after.


Well, I think I could start it with "selah"....., [pause, and calmly think of that]
retreat...rethink...what is my purpose, what am I after, what is it that I want to achieve, and why am I doing what I'm doing now.

Anyway, I've heard this phrase million times
"...though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me"
Well, I gues I'm in that valley now...., the low place I called "the valley of disorientation" :p
But hang on..., isn't the last phrase is the answer? ..."Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide] -->that's it, they comfort me".
Well, I guess I know what I need to find now. God's guidance
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