When Silence is The Answer

I looked up to the sky searching for an answer

It might be hidden in the cloud, 

or hanging up high with the stars

but silence was all I could find

Then I went down to the deepest sea

to a place long forgotten and abandoned

It might be hidden in between treasures

but there was only silence

Then I flew to the horizon

thinking that the answer might be hidden 

in a place where heaven and earth collide

but there was only silence

Then I stopped, paused, selah...

When silence is the answer, will I still trust Him?

But silence........is not the end!

Dreams

I'm not craving for a nice trip to Europe
to visit places where people repeatedly marvel at their beauties
I'm not craving for a luxurious and comfortable life
where we can have a comfy house, car(s)
and probably go on a nice holiday every year
I'm not dreaming of getting married a.s.a.p
and then have a nice little family
like many girls might dream
I'm not dreaming of getting a job in a multinational company
cashing out million dollars, so I can buy things for my family
and provide a financial security for my parents at their sixties.
Please don't get me wrong, I didn't say that those are wrong
For some people, those might become their goals and achievements for life
And that's fine
But those just don't work for me
I would rather be in a third world country
somewhere out there where my hands are needed most
helping girls to gain the strength to dream again
helping those who've been ruined, to build their lives again
I would rather be amongst those who are oppressed
and see the smile rises on their faces again
I would rather be with legends
who forsake their own lives for the well-being and freedom of many
I would rather be with them
When life is getting tougher, when the world is getting selfish
Let us be among those who are selfless
But I just find a tough time thinking about where to start
............................
Well, perhaps I can just start right here, right now
with what I have

A Silent Lullaby

I was dreaming of your crystal-clear eyes

and the sweet smile from your tiny lips

I was looking forward to the day

when I finally hold your soft little hands

Can't wait to see the sparkle in your eyes

when I finally home and present you a Cinderella's dress,

brought from wonderland, miles away across the ocean.

I was dreaming of the day when you'll first call me aunty,

the sister of your father

then you will show me a dance you learn from school,

with a pretty ballerina dress

or sing me some songs you learn from your mom and dad

But God has chosen a better homeland for you

He has handpicked you to grow up in heaven

where there is no weeping, and no pain,

so you don't have to see injustice in this world

He, who has formed you in your mother's womb,

has chosen you to be His princess

and His mighty arms cover you in grace

Goodbye my dear,

though I've never seen you, I know you have my heart already

sleep tight..., I'll sing you a lullaby

-a lament for my niece-

7 Feb 2011 - 10 Feb 2011

no one but You

I've just came back after spending the whole Sunday hanging out with friends and being at church. As usual, the first thing I do when I got home is turn my laptop on. After having dinner and watch TV, I do some stuffs with my computer, browse the internet a little bit, and so on...., but then suddenly something came across my mind, and my heart was just stirred up. I turn the TV off, close my internet browser, and just listening to this song....

..the greatest Love that anyone could ever know
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul...

All of a sudden I feel that everything surround me was just fade away..., it was only God and me. I long for such a time as this, when I come to Him with no other agenda but to meet Him, to be in His presence, like David said...better is one day in your court, than thousands elsewhere.... When all I ever wanted is Jesus. 
I realize, I was too caught up with my own routines these days, forsaking this precious opportunity to access His presence, to be with the greatest Love..., the greatest Love.., who has forsaken Himself, overcame the cross and grave to find my soul. 
If I've ever thought that I can replace Him with anything else from this world, I'm totally wrong.  The thing is... I know I was wrong, but so often I was still trying to look for something else to satisfy my heart.  Nothing in this world could ever satisfy the desire of my heart indeed.
a great career...
a gorgeous spouse...
a fantastic family...
or any wealth from this world...
would never satisfy...
Only in Him...I'm made complete
in Him, I find my true identity
Jesus..., my hiding place, my safe refuge, my friend and King, my Father, my confidence, my rock and salvation, the Gardener of my life,  my everything...
There's nothing in this world could separate me from His love...

I feel like a little girl, being in her Daddy's embrace, just feel the comfort of Father's love, and never let it go. Ohhh....how beautiful.....^_^

...You've opened my eyes to Your wonders anew
You've captured my heart with this love
because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You....

Living my Passion

I have a dream to make a difference in people's life
a dream to put a smile in a hopeless face
to preach the good news to the poor
to bind up the brokenhearted
proclaim freedom for the captives
release the prisoners from the darkness
and comfort those who mourn

I have to step out from my comfort zone,
get out from my nice little life,
start thinking out of the box,
and stop pampering my selfish desire.

I know it's not an easy thing for me
But hey, life won't be getting easier
we're meant to conquer the challenge 
Honestly, i'm a bit scared, terrified, nervous
part of me just doesn't wanna do it
but part of me just getting excited
yeaah....I'm about to try something new
something unknown
something that will be revealed
only if I start to step in faith
But deep inside my heart I know
this is what I meant to be
living my passion.............

and the best time to start to make a difference
is NOW

I'll see you in the Horizon....

***
I still remember the time when we're looking at the horizon,
gazing upon the line where heaven and earth meet.
how grateful we are,
for we are loved by the King
how marvelous are His workmanship

I still remember the time when we walked down those streets
where stories and dreams revealed
that's the first, and could be the last

The time will come, when I have to say goodbye
don't know.....will I see you again
unless the Master of miracle makes a way
but whatever will be
I know I can be so sure
that you're in the Arms of the Everlasting Love
our refuge and strength

just thank God for the friendship we have
hope it will last forever
bound by a divine connection
though divided by thousands miles

whenever I miss you
I will look at the horizon
the line where heaven and earth collide
there.... I will see you.................

***
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