gak jelas.....

pas temen-temen pada kuliah dan ngerjain tugas, gw banyak jalan2...
pas temen-temen pada libur..., gw ikut liburan juga
(lahh...kapan gw kuliahnya ya???)
fyi, gw emang gk pernah ada kuliah. jadi gw maklum kalo di fb temen2 banyak yg komen : "waah...ocha enak ya disana kerjaannya jalan2 terus". yaaaa.... memang begitulah adanya, hehe :D, as most photos uploaded on fb ya poto jalan2.
lha terus gw ngapain disini? makan gaji buta? eh bukan...makan scholarship buta? ya jelas tidak dunks....
program study gw itu full research, jadi kerjaan gw ya research, which is bisa kapan aja terserah gw berhubung supervisor gw result oriented. jadi gw mau jungkir balik ato tidur2an ya terserah gw yg penting kerjaan beres.
gw ke kampus senin-jumat (kalo lagi rajin), jm 9 pagi-jm 7 mlm (kalo rajin jg), dan gw gk mau bawa2 kerjaan ke rumah. naaahh..., sekarang lg ngerjain thesis yg notabene belum kelar2 juga, hihihi, kayaknya karena males aja siy berhubung hawanya hawa liburan nih menjelang natal

apalagi kemaren baru balik dr liburan yg menyenangkah. aaaakkhhhhh...., jadi tambah males
hu ha hu ha..., ini lg mengumpulkan semangat buat ngerjain thesis lagi. semangaaaatttt!!!!!
ehh, minggu depan aja lah kerjainnya. tanggung, udah wiken, hehe, mo packing aja dulu. ciao!!!!

Chapters of my life

Iseng-iseng mengenang masa-masa and chapters of my life...
today is 10-10-10. banyak orang punya angan2 mau nikah di tanggal cantik ini. ada yg kesampaian, ada yg kagak. kalo gw jelas gk berharap nikah tgl 10-10-10, karena gw tau...kuliah gw pasti blm kelar tgl segini, hehehe.
But nevertheless, gw pengen mencoba mengenang tiap chapter of  my life. sampe di chapter brp sih book of my life di tgl ini. *kalo thesis siy sampe saat ini chapter 1 aja blm kelar @_@ ;p*.

1. Childhood
early stage of my life.., kenal yg namanya keluarga, temen2, tetangga, dll. pokoknya memulai interaksi sama manusia yg laen. my senses started to recognize their functions.
waktu kecil gw sering di-dzolimi ama kakak2 gw (resiko anak paling kecil). trus gw suka melukis di seluruh tembok rumah, dengan lukisan standar anak TK...dan gak mo ngaku kalo itu gw yg gambar2 di tembok. gw bilang itu kakak gw yg gambar2..., tp ttp aja papa mama tau kalo gw oknumnya, hihihi.

Gw rajin bgt sekolah minggu, sampe selalu jadi anak kesayangan suster-suster di sekolah minggu. Trus pernah pas natalan sekolah minggu kan ada drama kelahiran Yesus. tadinya gw kebagian peran jd pemilik rumah penginapan yg gk mau ngasih tempat berteduh buat Yusuf n Maria..., hehehe...gw nangis dunk..., ngambek, gk mau dpt peran jahat. Alhasil..., akhirnya gw jadi malaikan Gabriel, hahahaha ^_^.
Gw juga rajin Pramuka dan Dokter kecil. Foto diatas itu foto pas outbound Pramuka. hayoo....gw yg mana?hehehehe.
Banyak sbnernya poto2 masa kecil gw, tp gk dibawa, hiks2.
Gw mulai pelihara anjing dan kucing waktu TK/SD kayaknya. Biarpun seluruh rumah gak ada yg suka kucing gw (karena dia bandel)..., gw selalu belain dia, hehe. Yah, masa kecil...masa yg menyenangkan, masa yg konyol, yaah...namanya jg anak2....


2. Junior High.., SMP, teenager...
Hmmm...., masa-masa SMP ini mulai muncul bibit2 kebandelan. Beberapa kali bolos dr kelas, cuman buat nongkrong di kantin, makan..., karena males dengerin pelajaran (duuh...maap ya pak guru..bu guru). Tp untungnya prestasi gw di SMP lumayan membanggakan lah. Dsini gw mulai tau yg namanya kompetisi di bidang akademik. mungkin karena lingkungan di-set begitu kali yah.

Hahahaha, poto di atas itu pas di Kuta, Bali. culun-culun bgt yak. itu pertama kalinya gw piknik ke Bali, sama temen2 SMP. Berkesan bgt, krn sebelum berangkat piknik, gw maju final lomba cerdas cermat SMP tingkat propinsi Jateng dulu bareng temen gw Estie n Ahmad (Alm.). Kami Juara I, yaaayy...dan pulang bawa Piala. trus pas nyampe di sekolah, naro piala, langsung cabut ke Bali deh..., senangnyaaa...
yang gw inget dr SMP yaa...namanya jg teenager yah, pasti ada pubertas, trus ada bandel2nya dikit lah....

Intermezzo...dari nguping jakarta

......diambil dari ngupingjakarta.blogspot.com

buat haha hihi aja, hehehe .....

Ya udah, stop yang lampunya kelap kelip aja 

Teman #1: "Eh, nggak usah semua taksi di-stop. Stop yang kosong aja, yang lampunya nyala."
Teman #2: "Iya gua tahu, loe kira gua bego?! Tapi gua bingung deh, kalau malam-malam begini kan semua mobil lampu depannya nyala ya." 

*Di tepi jalan, didengar oleh sang teman yang menahan diri untuk tidak mendorong temannya ke depan mobil yang melaju. 

Dilengkapi dengan autofocus, anti getar, dan belati

Pelajar #1: "Eh, loe punya handycam gak? Gua butuh nih."

Pelajar #2: "Gua sih dulu punya, tapi sekarang udah rusak... dulu kan gua sunat pake itu."

 *SMP di Jakarta Selatan, didengar oleh teman yang ingin tahu bentuk handycam itu.

Sebaiknya loe ikutan kursus aja deh

Pelajar: "Eh, tapi gua bingung, apa sih bedanya kuitansi sama akutansi? Gua bingung mau masuk mana?"

*SMA di Jakarta, didengar oleh semua temannya yang menganggap pelajar itu tidak butuh kuliah. 

Yang penting dalamnya...kesabarannya

Cewek: (Melihat foto) "Waaaah, cewek kamu cantik juga yaaah..."

Cowok: "Iya dooong!"

Cewek: "Kamu mesti bersyukur tuh, cewek kamu tipe wanita baik-baik..."

Cowok: "Hah, emang kenapa?"

Cewek: "Soalnya dia milih cowok gak berdasarkan tampangnya..."

*Didengar oleh seorang teman yang langsung tercekat iba.

Ya kan kalo gelap suka nabrak....

Cewek: "Eh, nyalain lampu dong! Sempit nih!"

*Kelapa Gading, didengar oleh tiga teman yang menyalakan semua lampu untuk bisa main sepakbola. 

Yang take away enak juga rasanya

Mama: "Aduh mama pengen pizza deh!"

Anak: "Iya aku juga mau. Pizzanya delivery aja ya..."

Mama: "Mama nggak mau yang delivery. Mama maunya yang beef."

*Bintaro, didengar oleh pacar si anak yang tiba-tiba takut faktor genetik

Nama belakangnya Perang apa?

Mahasiswa #1: "X, tolong cariin bahan buat tugas tentang perang, dong!"

Mahasiswa #2: "Okay... tunggu bentar ya."

Beberapa saat kemudian,

Mahasiswa #2: "Eh, gue udah browsing di Facebook... tapi kok ga nemu ya?"

Mahasiswa #1: "..."

*Didengar mahasiswa #2 yang berharap temannya tahu ada dunia lain di luar Facebook.

You Are For Me

I was being hectic today with all my lab works. Running around, back and forth like crazy, then when I got a chance to sit down in front of my computer, I listened to this song....., so powerful, and so relaxing....., enjoy!

YOU ARE FOR ME (by KARI JOBE)

So faithful

So constant
So loving and so true
So powerful in all You do
You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that You have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are

So patient
So gracious
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all You do
You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to you, Lord

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that You have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me that

I know that You are for me
I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that You have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are

check the video above. if that doesn't work, go to this link You Are For Me (video)

no one but You

I've just came back after spending the whole Sunday hanging out with friends and being at church. As usual, the first thing I do when I got home is turn my laptop on. After having dinner and watch TV, I do some stuffs with my computer, browse the internet a little bit, and so on...., but then suddenly something came across my mind, and my heart was just stirred up. I turn the TV off, close my internet browser, and just listening to this song....

..the greatest Love that anyone could ever know
that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul...

All of a sudden I feel that everything surround me was just fade away..., it was only God and me. I long for such a time as this, when I come to Him with no other agenda but to meet Him, to be in His presence, like David said...better is one day in your court, than thousands elsewhere.... When all I ever wanted is Jesus. 
I realize, I was too caught up with my own routines these days, forsaking this precious opportunity to access His presence, to be with the greatest Love..., the greatest Love.., who has forsaken Himself, overcame the cross and grave to find my soul. 
If I've ever thought that I can replace Him with anything else from this world, I'm totally wrong.  The thing is... I know I was wrong, but so often I was still trying to look for something else to satisfy my heart.  Nothing in this world could ever satisfy the desire of my heart indeed.
a great career...
a gorgeous spouse...
a fantastic family...
or any wealth from this world...
would never satisfy...
Only in Him...I'm made complete
in Him, I find my true identity
Jesus..., my hiding place, my safe refuge, my friend and King, my Father, my confidence, my rock and salvation, the Gardener of my life,  my everything...
There's nothing in this world could separate me from His love...

I feel like a little girl, being in her Daddy's embrace, just feel the comfort of Father's love, and never let it go. Ohhh....how beautiful.....^_^

...You've opened my eyes to Your wonders anew
You've captured my heart with this love
because nothing on earth is as beautiful as You....

Live a Purposeful Life

OK, so a month ago I wrote about disorientation, where I found myself going nowhere and don't know where I was heading. I called that moment 'a valley' moment. But the good news is I have Jesus. He is God of the hills and valleys. He is a rose of Sharon, a lily of the valleys (Songs 2:1). In every season, He is still God.

He helped me to conquer every season. Even when I'm in the valley, I do not fear, for His rod and His staff, the comfort me (Psalm 23:4). Now I'm back on my feet, I hold my ground, for He has set my feet upon a rock. I fix my eyes upon Him, the perfecter of my faith, and I hold onto His promise. " For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).

So, it's the way I see my life that determine where I'm heading. Now I found my purpose in Him. Step by step He shows me the way. My thesis is progressing, plan after I graduate is slowly but surely come into clarity, and I know where my passion is. I'm excited about my life. I'm excited about what the Lord is doing and will still do in my life. I'm just so excited!!! And it pretty much change the way I live my life. What about you? Wherever you are, I hope you live your live purposefully, with a divine purpose, and be excited of becoming who you are, be excited of living your life as you are. Be blessed!

Disoriented

There are moments in life when I feel .....disoriented....
and this time is one of those :p
It's like you're sprinting in full speed toward one direction, then suddenly you have no idea where are you heading to.
Or...it's like you're making every effort to do something you once dreamin' of, then suddenly at some point you're asking "why am i doing this?".
Or....probably it's like going to a battle with full armor, riding a horse in a full speed, ready to draw a sword, but then actually have no idea which one is the enemy.
Okay, I might be a little bit exaggerating, that last one is silly :p,
but somehow that's what I feel now, as I don't know where I should go. I have no idea where to start , and don't know what am I after.

Well, I think I could start it with "selah"....., [pause, and calmly think of that]
retreat...rethink...what is my purpose, what am I after, what is it that I want to achieve, and why am I doing what I'm doing now.

Anyway, I've heard this phrase million times
"...though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me"
Well, I gues I'm in that valley now...., the low place I called "the valley of disorientation" :p
But hang on..., isn't the last phrase is the answer? ..."Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide] -->that's it, they comfort me".
Well, I guess I know what I need to find now. God's guidance
********** ^_^