I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD

My random thought, and also my commitment.....

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Though I know I’m getting older

and a lot of people say it’s time to get married

I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD.

Until today, I haven’t met my future husband yet

or I just have not known who is he yet,

but I believe that he is a real Godly man who is worth waiting for (and praying for).

People might say I’m too picky

but I would say, I have to be strictly picky

because I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD.

Married is once in a lifetime decision

A commitment to love,

share my life with him until death separates us

and glorify God all the days of our lives

So, I will not accept any one less than the best that God has for me.

I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD

Although I might have to wait many more years for the right person

to share life, godly home, and God’s vision.

People keep asking and mocking

Friends around me are getting married, have got married, or have a boy/girlfriend

which supposedly created a peer-pressure,

but I won’t be pressured

and I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD by accepting the first fool who come across

or by accepting any born-again christian guy

just because he dares to say ‘I love you’

No no no, it won’t happen

because it requires more than just a gut

I WILL NOT LOWER MY STANDARD, because GOD’S STANDARD IS NOW MINE

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for me, marriage is neither a destination, nor a purpose in life

It is not about me or my future husband

It’s about God and our journey with God

God has to be the center of it all, even from this moment when we haven’t met each other

WARNING!!!: Marriage is neither a solution for your problem, nor an escape from A dissatisfaction of your current condition

FAQ (Frequently Asked Questions)

Edisi random. Gue cuma mau merekap beberapa dialog yg paling sering gue lakonin

A      : Ehh..ocha, pa kabar?

Gue : Baik...baik. lu?

A      : Baik juga. Lu dimana sekarang?

Gue : Disini

A      : iya maksud gue kerja dimana sekarang?

Gue : belom kerja, masih pengacara (pengangguran banyak acara-Red) aja, hehe

A      : #terdiamgakberaninanyananyalagi

Gue : minggu depan gue mau kondangan nih, temen gue merit

B     : kondangan mulu lu. Giliran lu merit kapan?

Gue : Hari Sabtu

B     : Sabtu kapan?

Gue : kapan-kapan

B     : yeaa...yeaa...klasik

Kakak : Eh, temen lu si C itu dah punya cowok belom?

Gue : udah

Kakak : Kalo si D?

Gue : udah jg

Kakak: elu kapan?

Gue : kapan-kapan (again)....

yak, begitulah, tampaknya lagunya Koes Plus, 'Kapan Kapan' menjadi jawaban andalan gue.

because, seriously I have no answer for those FAQ (Frequently Asked Question). Gue jadi udah kebal sama pertanyaan-pertanyaan yg entah udah berapa ratus/ribu kali orang tanya. Oh well, let the time unfold the mystery. Cheers!

My Masterpiece

I love photography. Here are some of my shots which I consider as 'well done'. 

Well, I am not quite a pro yet though, but I think these are quite good.

1. Sydney Harbour Bridge

Taken in Sydney, one fine summer night. No further image editing. 

Camera Canon EOS 1000 D, lens: 18-55 mm f 3.5-5.6 Canon lens

f-stop: f/10

focal length: 20 mm

exp. time: 20 sec

ISO: 100

This is my favourite shot. I love this place, I love the colour, composition, and lighting

One Little Step at A Time

Sabtu lalu gue ketemuan sama salah seorang adik di youth ministry dulu, si Echa, dan dia nulis jg blog ttg pertemuan ini, tapi beda topik, haha. Lalu kami makan2, ngobrol2, saling menanyakan kabar kami masing2, dan kabar temen2 kami yg laen. At some point I was overwhelmed by the fact that some of our friends (who used to serve The Lord together with us) have chosen the path that we don't understand as a follower of Christ. Some chose to yoke with unbelievers, and some have been compromising with the world in some areas of life. Tapi dapat disimpulkan bahwa dua hal yang menjadi major issue nya adalah "pekerjaan" dan "teman hidup". Dua hal ini yang membuat banyak orang stumble and drifted from their tracks. Dua hal ini emang sensitif, bisa membuat orang semakin jauh, ato semakin dekat dgn Tuhan. Dan puji Tuhan, ini dua hal yang gue gak punya saat ini, hahaha :D. Perfect! But I will have them someday though.

But eniwei, sepanjang hari itu aku terus bertanya-tanya sama Tuhan. "koq bisa ya Tuhan, koq bisa", "padahal kan dulu mereka bla bla bla", "padahal kan dulu sama-sama pernah mengalami perjumpaan dgn Engkau", "padahal kan...dst..dst..dst.", "aku gak habis pikir Tuhan, kalo mereka bisa kayak gtu, gue yang tdk lbh kuat dari mereka ini pun tidak fail-proof donk", " koq bisa ya mereka mengingkari sendiri apa yang dulu mereka percayai?",  "trus gimana Tuhan biar gak menyimpang dari track Mu?"

2012

Weeeww...gak kerasa ini dah akhir tahun lagi, dan setaon ini (2011) gw kayaknya gak banyak ngerjain apa-apa deh. Tapi aku juga belajar banyak hal. Well, may be this is a sabbatical year for me. But I can't thank God enough for what He has done for me this year. His mercy, favour, kindness, goodness, and everything. Ahhh...my heart is overflowed with thanksgiving. People might only see how easy my life was, this particular year, but God knows the truth, inside out.

Dan sebentar lagi dah mo thn 2012. Banyak orang yang takut kalo 2012 nanti bakal kiamat, the end of the world. Oh well, I don't believe that. Ini pasti gara-gara film kampring yang dulu itu. Fyi, sebenernya end of the world udah mulai dari kapan taon tuh, ini udah akhir jaman memang, liat aja tanda-tandanya dah persis ama yg dibilang di alkitab. Tanda-tanda akhir jaman nih diantaranya: people will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient, ungrateful, unholy, unforgiving, slanderous, etc (2Tim3:1-4). 

Ada yg takut menghadapi 2012, tapi ada jg yg penuh harap. Ada banyak yg pengen merit 2012, dan pilih tanggal cantik 12-12-12, secara kalo udah 2013 ntar gak ada lagi 13-13-13?!?!@##

But buat gue sendiri, gw berharap 2012 is a year of breakthrough. Though it is still unclear to me where will I be in 2012, and what will I do, but I have a full confidence in God, that He is already there, to pave a way for me, and to make sure that I will make it through. Terus terang, 2012 masih blank buat gw, gak ngerti, clueless, oblivious, but it can only means that I have to fasten my trust in God. Well, whatever you may hold oh 2012, I will welcome you with a big smile :))!!!

Dreams

I'm not craving for a nice trip to Europe
to visit places where people repeatedly marvel at their beauties
I'm not craving for a luxurious and comfortable life
where we can have a comfy house, car(s)
and probably go on a nice holiday every year
I'm not dreaming of getting married a.s.a.p
and then have a nice little family
like many girls might dream
I'm not dreaming of getting a job in a multinational company
cashing out million dollars, so I can buy things for my family
and provide a financial security for my parents at their sixties.
Please don't get me wrong, I didn't say that those are wrong
For some people, those might become their goals and achievements for life
And that's fine
But those just don't work for me
I would rather be in a third world country
somewhere out there where my hands are needed most
helping girls to gain the strength to dream again
helping those who've been ruined, to build their lives again
I would rather be amongst those who are oppressed
and see the smile rises on their faces again
I would rather be with legends
who forsake their own lives for the well-being and freedom of many
I would rather be with them
When life is getting tougher, when the world is getting selfish
Let us be among those who are selfless
But I just find a tough time thinking about where to start
............................
Well, perhaps I can just start right here, right now
with what I have

Absence

cold is the absence of heat
dark is the absence of light
death is the absence of life
hell is the absence of God